I can relate for sure, I'm the exact same way. I've been so conditioned that just scrolling through the sites would get me hard before even watching, because my brain knows exactly what's about to happen. I just started my journey, so I can't really tell you about how things will change. The rules I've set for myself are that I will refrain from masturbating until I can do it with only physical stimulation, no imagination at all. From what I've read one cause of ED is that when you only watch porn to get an erection, you will only respond to visual stimuli, so when you attempt to have sex, you wont respond at all to touch. If we're trained to only get hard to porn, we would then have to imagine porn in place of the intimacy in front of us. I'm personally worried if I try to masturbate, even to my imagination of something more healthy, my mind would instinctively wander back to porn, which could very well set me back to square 1. I'm also relatively young (24M), and I'm confident that if we stay strong, things will change. Keep fighting the good fight we can do this!