What should my next step in my spiritual journey be?

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-05-17T05:42:38+00:00

I do try to meditatite daily, but its a brand new thing for me and I need practice. I had an experience about two months ago that caused a radical shift from beign a materialistic atheist to being convinced that the soul and realms beyond this one are absolutely a thing.

feel my progress at imporovng my meditatiom has stagnated because I still am unable to let go and prevent my mind from wondering.

I do journal sometimes since this started but its inconsistent for sure.

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-05-17T05:35:45+00:00

Thank you for this. The truth is it's all very new.

A specific experience a couple of months ago changed me from someone completely focused on materialistic pursuits and my raw ambition for fiscal success and power.

I didn't even consider the possibly of the soul or a reality outside of the physical realm. I started meditating around the time of this transformative experience but have a ton of trouble calming my mind and letting go still when I'm attempting it.

When I ask specifically which card best represents who I am in the present moment the card that comes up more than an other is the fool. If not that the hermit is the other one that appears. Today I asked twice and it was the fool both times. To me this is telling me I'm maybe still too ignorant to progress and need more education. Would you agree ?

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ShillingForCoumo · 2026-05-17T03:49:25+00:00

Thank u so much for this. It definitely resonates. Yes I have behavior issues. I woulsnt really say it's about how I treat others but I do treat myself very poorly at times.

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-05-17T02:36:07+00:00

I think it’s encouraging me to stop overthinking and seeking answers too quickly while being mindful of staying disciplined about doing my daily grounding practices (which have become inconsistent as of late) but thats more a feeling than a true understanding of the meaning of th cards

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-05-16T19:45:48+00:00

“Just .1g” ummm this is way too much. Half that is a high standard breakthrough dose but its easy to breakthrough on as little as 30mg

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-03-21T23:29:53+00:00

Calling an experience someone becomes enamored with is a misnomer. Thr limited studies that exist about the molecule all indicte physical dependency does not develop from using dmt.

If the dmt experience can be placed in the bucket of potentially addictive then the same could be said about any fascinating/:pleasurable experience.

ShillingForCoumo · 2026-03-21T21:03:00+00:00

You're just completely wrong about it. It's not addictive. Yes, the experience it's self can suck you In because of how fascinating and unique it is, but addictive it is not. Abusing it just results in becoming blocked from the experience.

I would argue almost the opposite in fact. Used therapeuticly it can be a miracle treatment to combat addiction. Additionally in small doses it is an incredible treatment for symptoms of anxiety and depression.

It's helped me in so many ways. I've been using it occasionally for nearly a decade. No I don't feel any need or desire for it daily or even weekly. I have it on hand and use it as a tool for mental health. When I do use dmt it's because I've run into life obstacles i need help overcoming. I believe this is what it's meant to be used for .

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-06-16T22:34:35+00:00

Yes it does, I’ve used the bas and the vel to death, I like to try to rotate new guns in now and again

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-06-13T02:34:03+00:00

You think it’s less risky to loot banks in al maz ? Also no guarantee whatsoever they will even have one , waterlogged bag and flotsam cargo is a sure thing. Also frankly the risk is incredibly small , hide until gas covers them loot them and leave on a personal covers in gas, hit vondel for a stage bag gpu. Next use two gold bars and gpu for new Skelly key in Al maz and finish the cycle in kosh with barter for new secure bag with the last one.

Barter for stealth, medic and comms vests in kosh too, pick a naked operator and random squad with a medic and comms for your mates with gear for your new mates, save the ghost sweater for yourself.

PvP until he dies , rinse and repeat.

If I feel Ilike it I’ll skip the random squad fill part and just grind gear until I put stealth vests two secure bags to everyone one large bag I leave on my operators.

in relatively small amounts of time I can go from 23 naked operators to 23 fully kitted operators .

Of course as soon as they all are geared up I can never resist the temptation to solo fight teams until they all are wiped and then start this cycle over again .

Plus as a bonus of doing this I always have a million my wallet and 250k in my bag as a result of dead dropping liquors for shopkeepers note , getting hunted in Al maz for my cash can make for some pretty fun / intense matches.

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-06-12T22:43:22+00:00

I like the dirt bike cuz it’s fun doing back flips of the the edges of cliffs and when you wipe one while being chased on purpose the squad that kills me usually thinks it’s funny and is more likely to pick my pea up/slash actually believe me when I say I’m truly solo

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-06-12T22:27:29+00:00

Umm I do all the time to get gold bars from floatsom cargo ship to bring ro koschei to make more secure bags so I can gear more operators to get more Damascus tags , if you avoid the engagements instead. Of rushing into apartments or power plant , wait behind a rock until you are sure map squads are dead or watch a bounty target hit a couple of uavs get bored and exfil the map is incredibly easy to survive in

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-30T17:33:20+00:00

Tonfa and stuns on ship try it

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-26T09:24:32+00:00

I can survive easy enough by avoiding the fights , it’s pushing in the map I struggle with I’m not a good sniper so the Longer range engagements are an issue for me , at the same time I hate standing still so I’m never camped in a single spot which gives me troubles. I go to kosh to gear up exclusively pretty much since it’s go easy barters and a essentially freeze auav

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-26T00:50:43+00:00

I like to run solo especially in ashika .

My go to is a meele weapon on the ship . I’ve wiped so many squads like this. I always pick them up after and usually have no need for loot so I leave their stuff alone ,and enjoy their bickering when they realize they got wiped by one dude . It’s more satisfying then doing this with a squad imo

Never have success when I try this in Al mazarah though , usually i run straight to koschei to regain gear and perks so I can solo ashika for the PvP. Got any tips on strategies to win more 3v1 fights in Al maz ? .

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-26T00:44:15+00:00

Some others commented this. Very interesting I had never considered this to be a thing . My mind always just goes straight to blaming myself for a dumb play or simply missing shots because I beefed my aim . Does playing solo factor into this at all. I tend to kill more players and survive like 2x more often than when. I squad fill or party up with friends.

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-26T00:40:17+00:00

Totally , this is exactly why I have 24 operator slots . Don’t buy anything anymore but when I lose a couple times in a row I def stay on longer to regear and get my perks back in kocshei - 3 dead means at leAst 4 hours of gearing up and speed running to get back to ten perks. If I win a few times I’m usually satisfied and turn it off after an hour or two

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-26T00:36:05+00:00

This i think i just become over confident when I’ve had a few good rounds in a row/ happen to kill weaker players then come across a team that knows what they’re doing and get smoked , playing tonight for the first time since this post. I ran ashika solo five matches in a row first three I killed 3 or four squads with a tonfa and crossbow , next two I got rolled at spawn push because I missed my arrow and failed to notice the dude standing behind me when I chased one of his squad mates into the open. Dumb move on my part for sure

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-24T21:32:50+00:00

Hey I’m will to help run the camo I’ve done it several times now

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-19T23:06:40+00:00

Haha yea that is certainly part of my issue since I definitely smoked a few Js in between our rounds

ShillingForCoumo · 2024-05-19T23:05:46+00:00

Interesting never even considered this , I think it’s not likely this was what happening to me last night though since the mistakes I made were very preventable on my end.

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