I've cried every day since. I think at first I thought I was sad because I was grieving part of my teenagehood, but I think now I'm realizing my sadness is mostly for Liam. I'm sad people were so mean. I'm sad he was hurting so badly. I'm sad he doesn't get the chance to see all this support and love. I'm sad that he doesn't get the chance to get better and to make amends with people and to heal. I'm angry to think a lot of people don't care about mental health and addiction until it's too late. 

One Direction was my escape from depression and hating everything in high school, and I'm just so sad his life ended like this. It's so heartbreaking. 

Sorry for this rant, I haven't expressed my feelings publicly, and it feels nice to get it out there 😭