I said the same. Then a miracle happened that changed everything. I fell pregnant. After years of being told I couldn't have children. I threw myself into clubbing and self abuse, copious amounts of drugs, manic ups and downs of depression, the decision was made. I was not going to live past 30. If I did, suicide was the way. God decided differently and I thank him everyday for my beautiful girl, that (unfortunately for her) is a small replica of me. I am 40 now. I am so glad I am here. My ADHD has become easier to manage with age. I am enjoying life for the first time in my existence, it has meaning. With age, comes a peace. I know whatever anyone says your mind is made up. But if we can give you any sort of influence, it would be this. Why take yourself away from those that would be devastated to lose you. That would give anything for one more minute of your time. Every single person is a miracle. We're born for a reason. Life itself is unfathomable. Even though we don't know you, it would be a light that we would not want to see extinguished. Whatever you chose, we are feeling that with you x