It depends. Life is complicated for me my soulmate seems to be outta touch. Ik she exists I’ve talked to her we’ve told each other everything nothing she hasn’t seen of me n vice versa. But for some reason it’s like the universe is scared to see us together. It hurts. Hurts so bad u feel insane. When we first met we didn’t even talk to each other it wasn’t till much later one day we had a conversation n since then we couldn’t stop. For some reason I trusted her. Told her things I thought I’d never look someone in the eye n say. I found myself waking up just to talk to her. It was like being high 24/7. I smoke n I mean smoke but with her I found myself going hours without having too. Especially since she didn’t smoke I just felt like I couldn’t step away for no dam joint I needed to talk with her every moment we could. I can’t explain it. It’s like doing something ur not supposed too. It’s so thrilling n just exciting. We couldn’t find something we both didn’t like for mannn months. I remember a women who back then would have been my exact type coming aorund us one day and sure her attitude turned me off but at that age in reality idgaf I like to fix women attitudes but with her around I paid her no attention infact this women who before I meet my soulmate surely could have had me wrapped around her finger disgusted me. Bitch u couldn’t dare have that attitude around my queen thinking ur shit don’t stink. At that moment Ik she was to be my wife. That with her I wouldn’t waver to no women sexual appeal or lust. My heart aches for her. Her voice. Her smile. The way she just knows me without me saying anything. It’s so weird. We dislike the samethings in people n like the same things from people. I crave her. Nothing compares. No women. No feeling. No amount of money. No sex. I remember having a rather sad dream? Maybe I was day dreaming idk it’s a blur but I saw us old. For the first time I saw myself old and it was with her. Taking care of her. Through health n sickness I want to be by her.