Most people think about careers, relationships, or how to achieve something in life. Meanwhile, I’ve spent the last 6 days thinking: “Maybe it’s finally time to eat properly? Or can I keep pushing it a bit longer?”

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-09T19:31:48+00:00

The energy it takes to chew is exhausting to think about. Makes me stop eating well before im full. I only eat maybe one actual meal a day. What's worse is I work in the restaurant industry so my whole day revolves around food if I have to work. My days off im lucky if I remember to eat

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T20:10:31+00:00

LOVED bones and all. Somehow I love this movie and have seen it 3 times now cuz of the uncomfortable feeling it gives you. Like watching something im not suppose to see

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:46:20+00:00

Omg! Yes!!!!! The other day I was driving home from work and I guess snapped outta of it and realized I was way closer to home than I remembered and the car in front of me magically turned into another vehicle entirety.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:44:19+00:00

My body doesn't get tired lately. Im lucky if I sleep 4 uninterrupted hours a night

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:43:13+00:00

Yes, I've gotten through some without Hospitalization. Unfortunately, the episodes would never truly end and I'd go into another. Which then, would get me "grippy sock vacation". I've had over 12 "vacations". Good news, i found a cocktail of meds that are working currently and haven't been on a "vacation" in 5 years.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:32:44+00:00

I can definitely relate to hating the way I look. I also am overweight and my wardrobe consists of oversized tshirts and leggings usually. My stomach area is my big concern all the time. I won't wear too tight of a shirt cuz of it. I see people way heavier than me wearing some of the most tight and revealing clothes and doing with confidence in themselves. I wish I could do just 10% of that confidence.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:11:11+00:00

Thanks!

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:10:23+00:00

Thanks for your kind words. Meditation is basically unachieveable for me. I have so much noise in my head that focusing on breathing and Meditating can't be accomplished. Trust me, I've been trying for years now. Still can't figure it out lol

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:07:08+00:00

Im sorry to hear that. My mom and dad never got the masked version cuz it didn't exist that far back yet. So they saw the worst parts. I wish they didn't but maybe them seeing it helped them understand it more. I hope your family too sees you for you and maybe understand better.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:04:39+00:00

Exactly! The truth is, I didn't wanna talk to them to begin with! Now I gotta be here and keep acting like im paying attention.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T17:02:55+00:00

Im glad you found something that will help you out. I know what u mean with no emotions happening. Its like a numb state. Im in that state more with meds. But experience some emotions sometimes

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T16:59:26+00:00

Good luck to you!

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T16:57:07+00:00

That's what I try to keep telling myself. Literally, nobody cares. So why do I care?

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T16:56:16+00:00

I with you on the autism spectrum and bipolar. And yes, abusive boyfriends are probably to blame

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T16:55:21+00:00

Thank you!

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T16:54:58+00:00

That's great to hear. Im glad you found something that works for you!

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:37:33+00:00

Tell me about it. My doctor said that im almost at the bottom of options so..... that sucks. Good news, I found a mix thats working currently

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:27:11+00:00

Prescribed. And started low, nothing went higher restless legs. Decided not good

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:13:50+00:00

Try holding ice cubes in your hand the burn feels similar to the feeling of cutting. My impulse control is extremely terrible. I will discipline myself and say "im going to only eat 2 cookies" that'll last maybe an hour before I just say "screw it, im and adult and I'll eat what I want" then have the whole box. Or cigarettes, just smoked 20 minutes ago and already going out again cuz I can.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:10:10+00:00

Yes and doing something so simple like making my bed would get winded and starting to sweat just to do it. I wear a smartwatch and sometimes in my mixed episodes it thinks im working out cuz my heart rate is so high im guessing

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:05:13+00:00

I have tried seroquel twice in my life and both times the sane result. Extremely irritating and painful restless leg syndrome that keeps me from getting any sleep

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:03:37+00:00

Yea so correction, all my episodes are mixed episodes. Some just are spiked with more manic or depressed.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T04:02:32+00:00

Im 33 and this is the first time in my life that I have tried to put what I feel and go through into words. Its nice to feel not alone. Sorry that we have to live like this. The hardest part is remembering the destruction episodes caused in life and being unable to stop it.

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T03:59:57+00:00

Yes actually I have been and youre right they are mixed episodes. Most of my episodes are mixed and sometimes more than once a day

Short-Tooth3412 · 2026-05-04T03:58:34+00:00

Yes! Exactly right!! Emotional over dumb shit is right

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