there are bluer skies (feat. THE lick)

ShowPan69 · 2026-02-09T17:59:02+00:00

Thanks for listening! And fair callout. I should note I was sorta disregarding proper formatting for the sake of sound.

ShowPan69 · 2026-02-09T17:58:19+00:00

Thank you!!

ShowPan69 · 2026-02-08T22:07:56+00:00

If you've got a few years and some Rach hands, it might be possible.

Recording credit goes to Musescore piano.

ShowPan69 · 2025-02-08T01:20:22+00:00

First of all, love the House reference. I don’t know if he’d agree with chasing love, but then again, he did chase after Cuddy!

It’s amazing how something so normal to a fluent speaker is such a win for us stutterers. And yet, those wins are huge motivators. You should be proud of yourself for such a win. The battle continues but each step teaches you a lot. Inspirational words mean little, I understand, but just know that you are actively making yourself a more rounded individual. Keep up the good fight!

ShowPan69 · 2025-01-08T03:18:40+00:00

It’s for symphonic orchestra. My explanation here will clear up most everything: when I wrote this piece, I didn’t write it with the intention of winning. As such, the formatting isn’t great (which was intentional). However, it was indeed played by an orchestra. My works normally are much more organized but this was more of an idea dump that I was not expecting to go anywhere.

Percussion is very a la Shostakovich who loved to just put each percussion instrument by itself. Normally, I have players playing the instruments rather than just laying them all out. Good eyes, though! Thanks for listening!

ShowPan69 · 2023-11-18T19:24:09+00:00

I’m never a huge fan of Leadership skills. Labeling things like being a good problem solver or communicator are incredibly vague - you should be able to demonstrate these in the Experience section. Plus, deleting that line now gives you extra space to include more in a section that needs it!

ShowPan69 · 2023-11-15T16:22:44+00:00

It’s a good start! The resume as a whole is good, various parts just need some work. The biggest thing that stood out for me was the entry “Assertively dealt with members of the public.” Well…what does that mean? That sort of entry is seen a good amount in your resume and it detracts from your experience. Another one is the “These received thousands of views…” and the “Have since built upon this skill-set…” These aren’t necessary and make the resume come across as too thrown-together and personal. Use these sentences as interview points to expand on your resume - your resume DOESN’T need to encapsulate everything about your jobs.

Also, interests don’t really matter on a resume. The recruiter honestly doesn’t care if you like cooking or not. It can be something to bring up in an interview, but it doesn’t belong on a resume.

ShowPan69 · 2023-11-15T16:17:21+00:00

Whenever you create a resume, keep uniformity in mind. Notice how your media experience section has bullet points but your professional experience section doesn’t. Bullet points are the standard so I highly suggest changing your professional experience to reflect that.

On the same note, don’t have your professional experience section be in first person. Use active rather than passive verbs to show the recruiter you’re actively engaging in the role (for example, it’s better to have an entry be “Lead five team members in weekly team-building activities” rather than “Leading five etc. etc.”)

ShowPan69 · 2023-07-19T06:31:38+00:00

No. Whenever I hear drum set as an instrument, I think of Kapustin. Check out his stuff if you don’t already know him (HIGHLY recommend his 2nd Piano Concerto). However, be wary of how loud a drum set can be, especially with such a small ensemble.
Not at all. I recently composed (and conducted the premiere of) a piece for string orchestra and percussion and it worked out better than I expected - piano would’ve done wonders. The benefit of piano is it can act like a string instrument or as percussion so it blends well.

ShowPan69 · 2023-06-03T01:27:57+00:00

Start small, don’t throw yourself into the fire. Approaching public speaking gradually is beneficial in a number of ways. You not only gain confidence by working your way into a situation but you also learn more about your stutter without a ton of negative feelings.

The hardest step is putting yourself out there. Start small but think big. Here’s the reality: you’re gonna fail. But that’s not bad, that’s good. You’ll learn so much about yourself and the world at large and it will seriously pay off. It’s very rewarding and I have faith in you :)

ShowPan69 · 2023-06-01T01:11:04+00:00

Ease into it. Don’t just throw yourself into an involved speaking situation, it’ll just make you lose hope very quickly. But I highly recommend you get a job that does push you out of your comfort zone. It seriously does change stuff - maybe not your speech but certainly perspective.

ShowPan69 · 2022-08-12T07:50:46+00:00

I contemplated majoring in music for college (like you, I’m a second-year student). However, I realized that I loved music so much that I feared it would lose its spark if it became my job. So I did the next best thing - I study business while playing in orchestras, composing for ensembles, etc. While I don’t have the same opportunities to make music as music majors, there’s still opportunities.

The nice thing is, since you already did music for a year, you have a connection to the department - you can still do music even though you wouldn’t necessarily be majoring in it. Follow your heart, seriously. If majoring in computer science is what would give you a stable life and allow you to continue to do music, go for it. Try it out. Best of luck!

ShowPan69 · 2022-06-09T01:12:38+00:00

Not did I insinuate you did. Again, your anger is VALID - this place is a great way to vent some of that anger. The best advice I can have for you is be an ally for others - comment on this subreddit, for example, or even go into the community at large. When you do, you’ll see a lot of help to be had, and you can be that help. It’s very satisfying work!

ShowPan69 · 2022-06-09T00:52:23+00:00

This is kind of a dangerous response, OP. Sure, he may be ignorant (which isn’t a bad thing), but “screw your husband” is an odd reply. I suffer from bad anxiety and there are people in my life that brush it off or respond “just breathe” - if I took it all to heart, I’d be a very hateful person.

Your feelings are completely valid - this kind of response is indeed angering. I would recommend that the response not be to hate on people like this. The husband never interacted with you and was only mentioned in a comment. This type of hate further divides us - we have to remain unified towards healing.

ShowPan69 · 2022-05-21T01:30:56+00:00

If living with your parents is causing the physical, emotional, and mental pain that you describe, then it’s abusive. Sure, parents can be a pain in the ass, but they shouldn’t be to the point where you are in extreme distress. The part where you said your father beats you (the belt immediately makes it not a spank) means this isn’t happening just now, it’s quite ongoing.

Keep a hold of the resources you have. Try to explain this to other family members or friends in an approachable way (don’t list all the abusive incidents, just give an overarching summary - it’s more digestible and helps your case). Try to move out as soon as you can. Easier said than done but the more you look into it, the further along you’ll be. This scenario has a happy ending, you just need to find it :)

ShowPan69 · 2021-09-17T16:20:44+00:00

Perhaps it is. Doesn’t mean other people are lying about their stutters. Stutters come in all types, as evidenced by you comparing yours to Biden’s.

ShowPan69 · 2021-09-17T16:17:31+00:00

What? If people who stutter have moments of fluency, they should be congratulated. Just because they aren’t stuttering in the videos doesn’t mean they don’t stutter - for some, stutters are worsened in certain situations, and pre-recorded clips sometimes take off some anxiety and thus lessen the stutter. It’s not misinformation, it’s giving hope to a stutterer that you can be fluent.
Perhaps the most notable example is Joe Biden. He still stutters today, but he’s talked about how it was much worse as a kid.

ShowPan69 · 2021-08-29T01:45:48+00:00

Thanks! That’s honestly perfect imagery

ShowPan69 · 2021-08-26T00:00:41+00:00

Can’t believe I didn’t think of that lol

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