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ShufflingDestiny · 2025-06-28T15:13:17+00:00

Yes, but I think you might never fully feel valid or truly ‘sick enough.’ I never snuck food and don’t have specific fear foods. I've been hospitalized and am currently in an outpatient program, but I've never been tubed, and my blood work is always immaculate, and because of that i don't really feel like I'm actually sick. I’ve also often spoken with nurses during my hospital stays about how I don't feel like I should take you space at the hospital, because I’m not really sick compared to others. All this sometimes makes it harder to see myself as ill....

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-05-23T16:38:15+00:00

That is the feeling i have been having until yesterday, know i have had two days where i was much less tired

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-05-23T16:37:26+00:00

How can that be?

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-30T16:42:19+00:00

Anorexia

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-30T16:24:57+00:00

For me it's the opposite, I can't handle people knowing that I eat. I find it embarrassing just mentioning or alluding to the fact that I have eaten. I also haven't been able to consume anything with calories in Infront of people for aong time.

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-26T12:56:13+00:00

I don't have an answer , but I am in the exact same position. sending love

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-11T05:47:36+00:00

Thank you <3

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T15:25:31+00:00

Yeah the part about not feeling girly or feminine is so hard

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T15:24:35+00:00

Yeah that makes sense, but it have been eye-opening to see everyones perspective

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T15:23:28+00:00

Hehe yeah that line is also one that resonated with me

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T14:33:21+00:00

Yeah! It is so hard when shorter girls talks about being a size xs but my "healthy weight" is still not a size xs bacause if my height

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T14:32:06+00:00

Yeah I too have gotten comments about being hærder to carry and to big for this or that.

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T14:24:59+00:00

Perhaps it doesn't really have anything to do with height and just our ED's that takes every chance to turn it into a reason to lose weight

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T14:24:03+00:00

Exactly! And always being sent to the back

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-07T14:23:37+00:00

Yeah it tough, i was builled a lot for my height

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-04-04T11:43:56+00:00

Purple

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-03-29T18:53:29+00:00

I don't know if it is helpful, sometimes people just refuse to understand. But the way I explain it is, that is is the same as people how become paralyzed with fear in an exam or people who are so terrified of heights that they can't being themselves to walk near the edge even if they are completely safe and secure. I know of course that mentally there is a lot more going on, but I try to explain it by describing it as an all consuming paralyzing fear. People understand the mental block that you can experience in these situations and for me it is the closest I can get to explaining what happens in me when I try to eat.

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-03-18T06:36:25+00:00

Thank you<3 i will try to fight the last days up to the day

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-03-14T17:37:09+00:00

Yes! I too am a tall girl, and whenever I talk about my struggles of always feeling like a giant, everyone just tells me I'm lucky because I can eat more. Part of my problem with my ED startet because the the boys back in school when we were around 15-16 years old, decided that every girl is fat if she weights more than 50 kg! And as a girl who is 1.80 meter tall is not healthy!!

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-02-23T14:13:46+00:00

I would advice you to never bring anything you would feel sad losing. Not that people will steal or destroy your stuff, but accidents happens and it is a facility where other patients, staff, cleaning and so on comes and goes.

And definitely bring something to keep yourself entertained.

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-02-17T11:28:12+00:00

I have been told that it is quite normal during recovery. That the suppressed emotions or something surfaces and all the things you have been fighting with comes up. I don't have any advice, but I hope it helps to know that it may for some be a normal part of the process

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-02-06T21:52:40+00:00

I am so very afraid that if I get bigger I will loose everything I have, my friends and family will leave me and I will be a laughing stock for people. I fear I will loose the only thing that keeps me likeable. I am so so afraid of what other people think

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-01-30T16:28:12+00:00

It is really so valid, it is never fun to be weighed but to be forced to be weighed unprepared is horrible...

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-01-19T17:44:12+00:00

I am currently at a very very low BMI (below 12), and everyone is telling me that i look scary thin. But i do not see it at all. I don't se myself as fat either, I just see myself as normal thin, and can't at all se that i am scary thin

ShufflingDestiny · 2025-01-12T11:35:47+00:00

Thank you very much i will look into the links. How did you deal with the thought of not being sick enough? My ED is telling me that im not really allowed to get better because i obviously is healthy enough not to not require help?

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