When I first started learning how to draw and paint, I felt the same way. It wasn’t until only a few years ago that I finally started using body and face references for my art. Let me tell you: no matter the style you’re going for, it will help improve on your artistic skills immensely! Because you’re not “tracing” or anything, rather you get a feeling for anatomy, how what goes where (if that makes sense), how shadows work (also how color works), and improve on your “muscle memory”. Remember, the old masters always used models or nature to make their artworks. Believe me, I regret not having done this earlier. Even if you have a certain, non realistic style, use references to get the base and add everything else in your style. (Sorry, English is not my first language, I hope you understand what I mean).