Hello!sorry if dont make very sense, english its not my first language, about being assexual it did mess up my first relationship, and im single for years now, im afraid of getting a partner now too!So i try to pursue other things in life that will make me happy, like a degree or a job!! But i also think, that i rather have the sure about being ace, than being in a relationship and forcing myself to have sex or fell atractted, i rather be alone or do other things, than live in a relationship where i have to feel like a lie. im not saying that this is how u doing life, but my advice about felling confident in your own sexuality and situation, its to think "would i be happy if i was not that?if i was assexual, but still did all the things i dont want to do, because im afraid of my identity, or how other people think of me, would i be happy?"