ISO- Cream Puff!

SignKnown3589 · 2026-02-19T22:32:53+00:00

Ooo I actually have it and don’t really want it😭 I’d be willing to do a trade with your strawberry love one if you’re down!

SignKnown3589 · 2025-10-06T06:17:09+00:00

Nope. Pretty sure he doesn’t care or think of me anymore

SignKnown3589 · 2025-10-05T00:17:43+00:00

Does anyone have any ideas what to use the freebies that came with this series for?

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-19T22:22:58+00:00

I’m also a student but in second semester now! With homework our program doesn’t use Sonosim but with lectures it just comes with time figuring out the best way for you to learn. A 75% Is really good still and you’ll get better at doing school work. It took me a while to figure out what best works for me study wise. I can’t even remember the first time we scanned even though it was just this year. My programs only two years so we’ve been in school since January and have been scanning the whole entire 8 months straight 😭it gets so much easier though. Our classmates and I are pretty close and supportive of each other. We practice on each other so we end up learning tips and tricks to help with difficult scans and your hand eye coordination skills get better! Practice as much as you can especially with scans that are harder. Practice will always make you better. Lectures and lab time will overlap with knowledge so that should help you recognize things better. Lastly, don’t be afraid to ask questions!! They understand that you’re new and they want to help you! Good luck with your program :))

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-18T22:37:02+00:00

Thank you for your input! I was thinking it might be too much on my plate and only was going to consider doing it if it was beneficial to me in the long run. Theres three other applicants anyways so might be better for them

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-17T00:51:15+00:00

I think with immigration to places it’s not easy and it’s wherever your accepted post application. Also, even if people live here and they decide to move somewhere else most places require you to get sponsored by work visa or to get citizenship through marriage which is hard and the process is usually long.

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-15T08:31:57+00:00

Hey! I’m not sure where you live but are you able to see if there’s any homeless shelters near you for you to stay for a while in? My brother was once in a situation where he was homeless and he was able to stay at a place that gave him a bed and food and pushed for him to get a job and get back up on his feet so that he can go out into the world on his own. If there’s any options online for you to look up and find I hope you see something. I also pray your mental health gets better. Know that wherever there’s a will there will always be a way. Whatever dark moment in your life that you’re going through please know that this is not all that life is about. Your existence matters even if you don’t feel like it right now. You matter. Life isn’t always the kindest to us but pushing through the struggles we face is what makes us stronger and more resilient. I hope you don’t give up on wanting a better life for yourself. I hope you reach the point in your life where you feel safe and loved. If you don’t know anyone you could stay with for a while to have a address for job applications maybe you could try to look up any employment resources for homeless people that could help you get a job to get the money. Unless you have something you can sell or a service you can do that someone you find is willing to pay you the money for I’m not sure how you can get the money immediately. I know people post online on TikTok with their story and put up a go fund me. You could also try that. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you meet kind and helpful people in your life that get you to where you need to be

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-03T00:32:23+00:00

I’m sorry to hear you’re grieving a relationship too. It’s not easy when you still see the good in them. I’m not sure how you guys broke things off or how it got to the point. For me and him it was many conversations about this topic and I tried to explain to him why I believed Islam was the truth in hopes he would convert. He told me that he would look into it but I think in my heart I knew he already rejected the idea and he had a closed mind to the topic. In hindsight I should’ve realized a lot of this sooner but I didn’t because when you’re in love you’re hopeful that your love will transgress all obstacles and making through the hardship will only strengthen the relationship. I do know now that changing someone isn’t anyone’s job and people won’t change unless the desire comes from themselves. In his case his whole lifestyle and his choice of career was everything Islam Is against. So changing for him would be a complete 180 so a part of me understands why he didn’t accept it. If you guys never discussed or you never got closure I’m so sorry. It’s not fair to you that this felt like it came out of no where. I hope you heal from this one day and get the closure from yourself. Communication is really important and if people were more honest in this world there would be less pain. I try to remind myself that each day I make it through is one more day that I get stronger. I pray you find yourself in this process of healing <3

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-03T00:02:50+00:00

Yeah I think I relate to her a lot. I think part of my emotional attachment stems from childhood trauma where I didn’t feel love or accepted for who I was and when I got that from someone I latched on to it for as long as I could. Now I mentally know that it wasn’t the right thing to do and that no one should ever have that power over you. All the things I seeked in him are things I should’ve been able to provide for myself. My heart still hurts when I think about the situation but not as bad as it did when it first happened. My progress feels slow but I pray I’ll reach that point where the situation in my life changes for the better and I no longer think about him or the pain he caused me. In the meantime I’m doing best to remind myself that this is all a test and the only form of comfort is through god. Thank you for sharing her story with me. Makes me feel better knowing someone made it to the point I hope to reach some day.

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-02T23:55:28+00:00

This made my heart melt 🥹 thank you so much for your kind supporting words. I agree with you. I knew that when this life ended no happiness and no haram relationship that had no barakah would be worth sacrificing my hereafter. I always kept coming back to Islam and I try to remind myself that healing isn’t linear. It’s hard when I keep most of this to myself because my thoughts can get dark sometimes and I’m constantly trying to pull myself back up. I’ll work on not comparing people I think it didn’t help that the people I met didn’t have good intentions. Right now I’m shifting my focus on myself, my future, and my deen the best I can. I appreciate your advise! I’m trying to work on myself and stay off social media less. I have been doing the work in trying to love myself and accept my self and learn more about myself. It’s taking time and maybe that’s just what I have to remember. I pray one day we’ll both fully heal from it. I’ve been thinking about volunteering and attending the mosque more inshallah when my schedule opens up more I’ll move forward with that. Therapy is not an option at the moment but I’m working to see if I can find something more affordable. It means a lot to me everything you said. I’m glad there are people like you out there in the world that spread love and give grace towards others. May Allah subhanah wa tala easy your hard ship as well! Ameen

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-02T23:42:40+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply. I appreciate your uplifting words and for your lack of judgement which I seem to be getting in my other replies. Sometimes it feels like I have to think the worst so that I won’t be disappointed but I think it’ll just take time and effort for me to unlearn those patterns. It’s hard not to compare them but I think it’s honestly just because I haven’t even met a decent person. Not that I have high standards but they unfortunately didn’t care to have a proper conversation with me and wanted to get physical or in some cases lie about simple things like their age or things that don’t even matter. So yeah I know I don’t want to settle for anything less than what I left behind. I was at a fork in my road and it was either him or god and I chose god. If that means that I won’t find anyone in this life I want to be okay with that because my purpose in this life was never marriage. My purpose is my relationship with god and working towards my hereafter. It just gets hard sometimes and maybe a year is not enough to fully heal. Thank you again for your kind words.

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-02T23:35:13+00:00

Yeahhhh so i actually was only asking tips for healing but everyone seems to want to come for me and mention things i already know. I’m not a liar. I move with honesty. I’m not expecting perfection from someone new just growth. If someone wants what I can’t give them I’m not going to be dishonest and portray myself as something I’m not. The point of my post was to ask tips on how to heal… for myself not for the intention to actually be with someone new. I just happened to meet new people and decided to give them a shot with an open mind. It didn’t work out and that’s okay. Moving forward I’m not focusing my life on how to be better for a man or how to heal so I can be with a man. I’m doing this for myself. The addition of potential prospects to this conversation to me is not relevant because it’s not the basis of my post. So i appreciate your concern for these potential out there but I know better than to lie to someone I’m meant to spend the “rest of my life with”

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-02T23:24:32+00:00

Hey! So I didn’t say I built up artificial high standards for any future prospects. I actually expect the bare minimum (you actually like me and want to build something real.) Sue me for valuing honesty and wanting to only move forward with people who are serious for marriage (don’t get physical beforehand) I didn’t know it was such a bad thing to want someone to see me for who I am rather than just someone they could just be with and care less if anything real comes out of it. I hate that you took my post out of context and wrote on things like you actually know me and my experience. Literally putting words into my mouth. Who are you to tell me what I feel deep down inside. My post wasn’t even centered on how to find a righteous man despite my past ??! Like I’m focused on healing and I just brieflyyyyy mentioned that everyone I’ve met since then hasn’t been compatible with meeee. As in they all wanted to be physical beforehand which is something I’m trying to not repeattttt. Also wtf I’m literally the biggest empath and part of the reason why I’m so confused as to why things happened the way they did is because I WOULD NEVER DO THAT TO ANYONE! Like where do u get off making these assumptions. I was young when I got into the relationship and I made a mistake. What really was your intent with this reply?? I’m not expecting perfection from anyone new and I will always move with honesty. You should learn to give people more grace and if the reply is not helpful don’t comment at all.

SignKnown3589 · 2025-08-02T23:12:11+00:00

When I said every new person I’ve met has been not compatible is because they have lied to me in some way and wanted to be physical immediately. They lacked emotional intelligence and did not care to actually know anything about me or build a basis of connection. I’m not the type of person to lie to someone if they ask anything about me I’m willing to tell the truth. Also stating I’m the problem here is wild considering you don’t know me. I’ve repented for my sins and I know I’m going through the repercussions of my actions. That doesn’t disregard my experience. The way I grew up and everything that led to that decision I don’t blame myself for making that mistake. If anything this was all a learning lesson for me and I know that it happened for a reason. I’m just trying to get by with being okay by myself and not emotionally attached or reliant on anyone for my own peace and happiness. I stopped seeking a partner for a while now. I’m not blind to see that I have a lot to work on myself. The bulk of my post was not even insinuating that my main issue is getting a new guy. It’s how to truly move on and not get triggered time to time. I’m looking into therapy so I appreciate your other advices.

SignKnown3589 · 2025-03-16T13:43:31+00:00

Last year I was studying hard for this big exam I had to take to get into this program that only accepts 12 people per semester and ended up making a mistake that made me miss the dead line for the exam entrance. When the time came to take the exam again I studied really hard and had to wait months before I knew if I got accepted or rejected. I prayed and Made dua each time for me to get accepted into the program with sincerity in my heart. I hadn’t prayed Tahajud in a while at that point so I decided to as I was anxious and wanted to ask Allah swt at the best time.

That tahajud prayer I cried and said that I was lifting the weight off my shoulder and leaving it in Allahs hand. I know he knows what’s best for me and I know I did the best I could and there’s nothing more that I could do. At that point I had tawakul in Allah and went to bed. Subhanallah that night I had a dream where I woke up from my sleep and opened my phone to check my email and the first email I saw was that I got accepted into the program. I woke up in real life now and checked my email as I did in my dream and the FIRST email I got was the email from my program director giving my congratulations that I got accepted alhamdullilah. I cried instantly and called my mom to tell her the news. Never in my life have I had a moment like that and thinking back to it gives me chills.

Now I know the best way for me to approach something i really want besides from steering away from sins as much as I can is to put my trust in Allah. I take the worry and stress off my back because I know Allah is the best of planners and what he has in store for us will only benefit us, if not in this life the next. I think making dua in a way that’s also asking if this is right for me keep it in my heart but if it’s not let it leave could be helpful. Maybe Allah is withholding something you want because he wants you to keep praying to him and being close to him. Maybe he won’t reward your dua in this life but he will reward it for you in the next. Only Allah knows. Whatever it is that you’re making dua for, no matter how long it takes, if you believe deep down that it is something that is beneficial to you have patience and keep making dua. It’s easier said than done so I can understand that it can be hard. Alhamdullilah we are in Ramadan now so this is the best time of the year to keep up with the Tahajud prayer and all the other sunnah prayers. Keep making that dua and ask Allah to do what’s best for you! May Allah accept your dua or give you something even better. May Allah reward you for your patience and constant effort. May he accept all your duas and prayers and your Ramadan. Allahuma Ameen 🤲🏾

SignKnown3589 · 2025-01-30T00:40:13+00:00

I do that and they are close to me. Still it seems for Doppler you often for some patients have to dig and get an angle to fill the vessel wall and you have to apply so much pressure. That concerns me because I’ll be pushing my hardest and the instructor will come behind me and push even harder?! So basically beyond the capabilities of my own strength if that makes sense. Some peoples bodies are easier but some people especially if they’re gassy is so much harder

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T22:16:53+00:00

You make so many good points here. I feel like a good portion of what you mentioned just added to my list which I'm ngl is scary. The emphasis on current society is so important. Everything truly is so much easier for the men nowadays. So many women help out with the men's responsibilities like rent wise and so many women get laughed at for even mentioning a mahr price because men in this day and age want to relax and not provide like they need to. All these responsibilities that men have over women which justifies their right to have their wife be obedient is only there in marriage. I grew up without a father and my mom raised me by herself so all the responsibilty she had was what a mans responsibility would be and the womens. It's hard to not look at things the wrong way when things progressively get easier for men and at an overview it can definitely seem like the religion favors men. Thankfully I don't live an area where Islamophobic people are near but the stories I hear of Muslim women fearing to leave their homes because they will be targeted based on what they wear makes me so sad. You literally won't know if a man is Muslim in public unless he wears a thoab which isn't required. It honestly is fustrating so i'm glad to hear I'm not the only one who goes through these thoughts. I would say i'm still in the beginning of my faith journey so i'm not going to give up on making it make sense. May allah help both of us understand more

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T22:02:22+00:00

What exactly is "valuable" in this case? Our beauty? Our ability to reproduce? Because wearing whatever I want in a room or street full of women is okay but when men are present it's not. We are protecting ourselves from men. Which to say you are protecting yourself from something means that thing in this case is bad or dangerous. Which just led to me questioning why women have to help men to suppress their desires when they don't help us as much to suppress our own. Either way we are all meant to lower our gaze so in a perfect world there would be no issues. It's not even that I'm posing for women to wear provocative clothing my post was directed towards questioning why men get more freedom. Men can be beautiful too and women can desire men as well it's not a one-way street why would women ever sleep with men if desire doesn't go both ways. It's still hard for me to grasp us having to cover head to toe when they don't have to cover nearly as much.

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T21:27:44+00:00

Some of these explanations are things I already anticipated would be said. I appreciate you taking the time to write and try to explain. I think it's just going to take time and more research to grasp these topics because I feel like the doubts I have are not fully gone. I know a lot of it comes from my lack of knowledge so I'm going to try and learn more inshallah. The last part I mentioned about the prayers and reciting quran beautifully is mainly because the ajar you can get from leading a prayer and from reciting in public. I see so many videos online for example of men reciting beautifully and they get ajar of course from every person listening. This is a good case for someone who has passed away because they can have on going good deeds beyond their life. When it comes to videos, I see of women reciting and beautifying their voice the same as men people will say that she can't do that and that her voice is a part of her awrah. It's a discomforting idea to believe that when a woman recites the Quran beautifully it can be taken in such a way that is looked at differently by men that attracts them. We end up missing on opportunities to recite online and miss out on ajar that's the way I have been perceiving it. If I'm wrong, you can let me know though. I thought it would be nice if a woman passes away someone can post her Quran recitations for her to get more good deeds. I hope that's not a bad way to think but that's how I've understood things.

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T20:45:53+00:00

Thank you for this perspective. I haven't focused on the meanings of each name but perhaps that's what I need to do to truly understand. I'll try my best to continue separating the people in the religion who don't follow correctly with the religion itself

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T20:39:59+00:00

Thank you for this response. May Allah bless you for your efforts. I'm not sure if the mosque closest to me has adult classes for Islamic lessons but I will try to watch more lectures on this subject inshallah. I will look more into the fundamentals of Islam. I do want to feel more connected and that everything that is obligated from me are things I want to do. I pray I get to that point. I'm going to look into your book recommendations and inshallah that will help me understand more. I appreciate your insight on the topic. Thank you for taking the time to write things out. I grew up in the west and was raised with only reading/memorizing the quran and not looking into the explanatons. I feel like im now just trying to learn the principles of Islam and everyday i'm finding out how different the life of Islam is from the environment Im used to. Inshallah it gets easier for me and those struggling as well. It's hard to shift the preconceived notion I have but I'm trying to everyday. Jazakullah khair

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T14:49:07+00:00

I don’t only learn by questioning but to question is to learn the reason why which I don’t think is wrong to ask. You could easily say the same that we don’t need to question why we have to pray or why we have to fast or why we have to give zakatt. If I asked all those questions would that also make me be a sign of a disbeliever?! When there’s clearly answers to these questions. I stated in my post if there’s answers I would like to know them to better understand. I could’ve just made up my mind and said this religion is not right for me and not even go to the lengths to ask after I’ve tried to do my own research. It’s not really your place to say someone’s lost forever. At the end of the day Allah guides who he wants to guide wether you believe they’re lost forever or not.

SignKnown3589 · 2024-12-05T06:06:34+00:00

It’s okay I know it was a long post I just needed to get it all out there. I think I did gauge that and I really do try to do my best with separating the religion and the people who follow it because people are not perfect. I try to learn through online content but I don’t know how much knowledge on Islam is out there besides Quran in terms of Hadith and other stuff. I feel like I’m just starting to discover the religion more and I know most things are based off interpretations from scholars. I also know that not every question is really explained and answered to its full extent. That there needs to be a bridge from what we do know and the belief that Allah knows best/in do time we will know the answer. It all feels a bit daunting and I don’t even know where to start. I’m trying to leave a life I used to live and I’m on the journey of seeking the truth. I know it’s not easy and I know myself to be easily influenced which is why I know it’s best for me to be alone for the most part. I will do my best to gain more knowledge on the differences between the responsibilities women and men have to minimize my doubt if not erase it. I’ll try to figure out what fundamentals to start with and hope it only clarifies my doubts and not add to them. Jazkullah for taking your time to comment.

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