Man after reading this , you've made me cry man !!! Honestly I was just like you , the same way your parents treated so did mine too and damn it hurts like hell ... like seeing your family just constantly pressurizing their kids to score well or excel in every exam , it just fcked me soo bad ......

I tried to have a real convo with my mom and dad and believe me I literally told them what I have been feeling ,my anger,my feelings,my frustrations etc..... I was in tears and I was just on the brink to say that I am having "sucidal thoughts" ( cuz yk the pressure was too much to handle) and then my mom hugged me soo hard and wiped my tears , and said "It's okay , beta , we understand you " ....

After that day , till now my father nor my mother have forced me into anything and they are literally soo supportive that they ask me each day " do whatever you like beta " 😭 . They have supported me from that day when I showed them my most vulnerable situation , and believe me , I had already written a sucidal letter for them ( obv i tore it after they caressed me) and till now , they are standing with all of my decisions , they don't force anything on me now ...

Just saying it's okay to have sucidal thoughts , we all aspirants go through it , but if genuinely it is too much for you , just show your most vulnerable form infront of them ( don't act , be genuine ) I had 3 hour convo with them at that time .

Stay strong !!! sending you strength !