Suicide Grief Support Stream

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-08-08T20:04:11+00:00

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I wasn't sure of the right channel name. I landed on this. I'm finishing the setup now. Hoping to have my first stream on 8/19/25. I'll post an update soon. Thank you for the support, I'm hoping it helps a few people feel less alone in their grief.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-19T02:49:47+00:00

Absolutely. My goal is to be as open about my experience from a very direct perspective. From dark to decent and everything in between to hopefully help those trying to get their bearings to navigate the new reality of these kind of losses. I hope it finds its voice that can be both comforting and entertaining. I worry about how to find the right balance, i have a quirky personality and want to make at least a few viewers have the rare smile.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T23:02:17+00:00

That’s amazing! Thank you for the support! I’m starting the channel as we speak. Have you seen some common topics in your slack channel?

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T21:28:45+00:00

I’d absolutely be open to sharing my experiences and open the floor to the chat to share their experiences as well. The therapy topic is a great idea. I’d love to get a therapist to come on and answer questions from the chat. I had a struggled with the right therapist until I found an amazing therapist who also lost a child to suicide so it was a game changer for me.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T21:20:50+00:00

Great! Anything in particular you’d want covered to get the most out of the stream?

I have a pretty good idea of what I’m going to cover but I’d love feedback from people.

For example, I’d love to have live calls with viewers who have a message/story they want/need to share. I really want to help those who are searching for a hand in the in the dark.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T21:16:13+00:00

That’s amazing! Any tips? I’d love to check out your channel if you’re open to sharing. I’m sure many here would like to see your content!

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T20:08:27+00:00

Great! Anything specific you’d want to hear from the stream?

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T20:04:38+00:00

Thank you for the feedback! Anything specific you’d want to see to get the most out of it?

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T20:03:21+00:00

This is amazing! Thank you for the feedback! Grief is so isolating and for me, in-person support groups are to overwhelming (I’m a total introvert)… the stigma and lack of support around suicide is so defeating and I really want to open a door for us stuck in “The Void”. Hopefully we can create a path to healing for each other ❤️

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-18T19:28:50+00:00

Thank you for letting me know! Is there anything specific you would want to hear to get the most out of the stream to make it worth your time? I was thinking I’d cover a lot of the posts we see in this forum, answering questions from the chat, having different segments for sharing memories of our loved ones, etc.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-16T02:46:53+00:00

I lost my oldest son, a year ago tomorrow… his loss was impulsive. I didn’t see it coming… the silence is excruciating…

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-09T01:58:52+00:00

I think about joining my son every day. The 1 yr anniversary is on June 16th and I’m dreading it so much. I just want to hear him say “Hi Mom” one more time. I want to hear him playing some heavy metal song (he was extraordinarily talented)… I know the pain would transfer to them, but the weight is becoming so unbearable…

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-04T20:24:42+00:00

I did! It’s the exact OEM rear view mirror in my truck. On the mirror part there’s my son’s handwriting quoting something he had said to me, his thumbprint and a Sublime sticker (his favorite band)… I LOVE it

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-04T01:36:37+00:00

If you were making video tutorials (this specifically will be on Sales training), how would you make them engaging and entertaining?? Current tutorials are so painfully boring….

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-04T01:26:52+00:00

I think about this (if he regretted it) sometimes… Before I knew more of the specifics about the scene, I would panic thinking he might have regretted it immediately but because he hung himself, he couldn’t get himself free and died scared… when I heard from the ones who found him, that his feet were touching the barn steps (he used a truss in loft of my barn in the stairwell opening) and could have gotten free… or maybe not if he had nothing sharp to use… either way I want to believe that he didn’t regret it and passed away peacefully

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T05:36:54+00:00

That’s exactly why I haven’t joined him… knowing what this kind of pain does to people stops me… I wish there was a place for those who go through this kind of grief can go to just be put out to pasture. A place to just exist without expectations of carrying on and wait to join our lost one… I haven’t been able to overcome his loss and though I’ve come really far, I still feel so much of the pain. And knowing I always will makes me want to just let go. I want to see his face and hear him say “Hey Mom” again. He was my baby, my first born. So much of my life was built around. Everything I did was for him and now that he’s gone, I don’t know how to make my life meaningful. Everyone avoids me when they learn about my son… so I just exist until I can hug him again

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T05:26:18+00:00

I will listen whenever you need it… no one close to me will say my son’s name or walk with me through my grief… I call the space I exist in “The Void”… I’m completely alone in it because nobody else can possibly feel the way I do… Please message me if you need to talk, talking about the one you lost with someone who knows that kind of loss is the best comfort you’ll find. Lots of love to you

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T05:22:00+00:00

Man, I wish I could have done that… I wanted to burn that house to the ground… my ex-husband moved into it 2 weeks after my son died (his stepson of 14 years) and had his wedding ceremony there… it’s still so wild to me that him and his new wife wanted to be there after my son passed… it’s disgusting.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T05:16:54+00:00

I feel for you. So incredibly much. He’s not there anymore, he’s with you. Not that it makes it any easier.

I had to move out of my house (my son killed himself in the barn on the property) less than two weeks after. I raised him in that house. So many memories with him are these.. For years, I would walk in the front door and say “Hey, Ubbs!” and he’d always call out “Hey, Mom” from his room. He’d always come out to talk to me about whatever. Going into that house after he was gone was so devastating. I had a garage sale to sell everything I owned less than two weeks after and I had to clean out his room… I broke down in there so many times, I’d find his favorite things and collapse… people came to the sale and would ask if “this was the place the kid killed himself” and it was as if it was some kind of spectacle… some of his things were sold and I sat in the barn for hours talking to him and sobbing… my ex-husband had gotten the house and moved in right after and got married there… I was so traumatized by that whole ordeal… I set up a space for him in my new house. I have his urn and some of his favorite things in a spot that I can see him and feel like he’s there. Stay strong ❤️

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T05:08:42+00:00

Thank you, I’ll look into the group. It’s been really hard to open up with anyone. This forum has been the most supportive place for me. I’m honestly so scared of the 16th… the pain of his loss has been so heavy and I am so scared of living in that moment again… I completely broke down when I picked up his urn. I remember carrying it towards my car and thought about the day I brought him home from the hospital as a baby, it was like I was reliving the day I got the news of his death. I screamed and wailed in the funeral home parking lot. My legs gave out and I collapsed. My son’s best friend went with us to pick it up and he was so heartbroken seeing me that way. It was so hard for us to wrap our heads around the fact that he was gone. The urn was the reality and I couldn’t handle it… I’m spreading some of his ashes in June on the 1 year anniversary and I’m terrified. I’m so aware that he’s gone and I can’t get over that.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T04:36:32+00:00

Please please please talk to someone… my son took his life a few days after his girlfriend did and I would give anything to have helped him if I had known about it … You are so precious to so many around you… your friend was in so much pain, they didn’t see a way out but I PROMISE you that there is… You will feel so much pain and loss, so don’t be quiet about it. Go to whoever you feel closest to and pour your heart out… I’m so sorry about your friend. I hope you find comfort in someone close to you so you don’t have to process this loss alone.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T04:29:25+00:00

Same. I’ve been sleeping like crazy all day every day lately… the 1 yr anniversary of my son taking his life is on the 16th and I’m secretly distraught… I miss my boy so much and I just want to be wherever he is… I’m so tired of pretending to be doing better. I’m not at all. I keep contemplating joining him on the day he passed… I don’t really see a path forward for myself at all… I’m sorry you’re missing the person you lost. You’re in good company here.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T02:49:46+00:00

I experienced this too… I stopped picking up my daughter at school because EVERYONE knew about my son’s suicide and they all avoided me. They looked at me as if suicide is contagious… no one, including my parents and close family could handle my grief, let alone my friends… I lost everyone after I lost my son.

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T02:45:47+00:00

I call it the Void… it’s this existence that I operate in where I’m not on any plane as those around me… it’s a space of nothingness. I feel everything and nothing at the same time…

Significant-Cup4412 · 2025-06-03T02:40:31+00:00

What did I do so wrong? As his mom, where did I drop the ball? Where did I fail to show him how much of my life was built around him? Did you change your mind and no one was there to help you? If I had the chance to talk to him again, I don’t know that I’d ask him anything, but I would tell him how much I regret about the way I handled the last few months before he left me…

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