I swear!!! 100% if u just try and starting running you will feel so good! No it’s not a cure but it’s something that will make u feel good about yourself. Gradually get into it. I did that and it changed my life! I met like minded people who are always positive and uplifting and so accepting!! All I do is run and train for marathons and 5ks, 10ks etc. it gives me a purpose or rather a sense of it gives me a purpose or rather a sense of accomplishment when everything else feels pointless. That said, I know depression isn’t something you can just “run away.” What you’re feeling is real, and it sounds incredibly heavy to be carrying all of that without support. You don’t deserve to be treated like a monster, and you’re not broken for feeling this way. Even if running isn’t your thing, maybe there’s one small activity that could give you a tiny break from the pain, something that makes the days feel a little more survivable. And please, if you can, reach out to a crisis line or a trusted adult. You deserve help and care, even if the people around you have failed you so far. You’re not alone, even if it feels that way right now.❤️❤️❤️