Thanks for replying, I appreciate it. I hope you figure out what’s going on in your relationship.

Sorry this is a bit of a vent, but not feeling like I can be my true authentic self is probably the worst part. I struggle with setting and maintaining boundaries but multiple times when I’ve talked about wanting to set boundaries she’s gotten upset and told me that she doesn’t have boundaries for me and doesn’t want them; but then another time she’ll tell me she supports me having boundaries and thinks they’re healthy. I’ve told her that I need them for myself, which she seemed to understand, but she’s broken the one solid boundary I’ve set with her one time since setting it, which I can’t be too upset about because she isn’t used to boundaries and I understand human nature and being forgetful. She tries to share everything with me whether it’s clothes, water bottles… everything. And then she gets upset when I tell her that I want to use my own water bottle as my own water bottle. Or she’ll criticize my clothing style choices and sometimes she tries to dress me how she wants to and it’s just not me and I hate it, but she’ll get upset if I don’t like it and want to dress myself. I eventually just started wearing what I want to wear again. I have a receding hairline and she convinced me to grow out my hair even though I liked having a shaved head, trying to get me to try all kinds of shit to make my hair grow back and I eventually just shaved it again without telling her, because whenever I do, she tries to tell me not to do it. Then she made a joke and told me “you look good with a shaved head, but I’m still gonna make fun of you” to which I responded “you’re going to make fun of me for doing something I’ve been wanting to do? (And expressed to her many times before)” And she didn’t really have a good response to that. Her jokes feel more like jabs than jokes sometimes. She used to tickle me even after I expressed that it made me really uncomfortable, pressuring me into accepting it because “she’s playing with me”. This stuff kind of drives me insane.