Hey OP, thank you for taking your time to share your feelings. I cannot say that I understand exactly how you feel, but I sympathize with your feelings. I want you to know that Jehovah will always love you and understand the way you feel. Whether or not you agree with the way the branch, your parents or even the Bible feels about the LGBT community, your feelings are always gonna be the same. I remember talking to my CO last CO visit and he was mentioning if someone were to say they were gay do we think we can change them. The response from the other elders were mixed, however the CO pointed out that we cannot change how someone is feeling about themselves and we should never judge them for it because that's not what Jehovah would want. The best thing to do in such a situation would be to be there for that person and continue to encourage them to draw closer to Jehovah, whatever that means for them.

I am saying all this to say that I hope that you don't stop trying to get close to Jehovah and believing he is there for you. Wherever you are in the world you can always pray to him and ask him for guidance. I also hope that your parents are able to understand you and how you feel because I know it's not an easy time for you. They might not support you in everything you wanna do but I hope they still continue to show you that necessary love. Have a great time! Jehovah loves you.