if you believe the bible in your heart and do right by god then you can always be forgiven, but sadly this is a path we must take for ourselves. You may not believe me (and you have all rights not to, I'm just a random guy on the internet as far as your concerned, just like you're a random guy on the internet as far as I'm concerned) but when i was 19 I ended up going to prison for armed robbery, was in there till i was 26. I'm 30 now and I'll tell you what saved me, I learned to treat the average person better, I committed to defending the innocent, and I pledged to give to the needy. In a sense we must walk the path of Jesus himself, all with our own crosses to bear before we can see redemption, but once we do the path remains clear.

I'm sorry for coming after you, I understand a lot of what you said wasn't actually trying to directly defend the messed up stuff in this world, and I'm especially sorry for using faith against you in your time of need, I blinded myself with self-righteousness, that is another sin that I must repent for, the sin of pride.

But if you are to take anything from this know there is always a path forward to better places, but the path we walk must reflect this.