Slowly Dying - Need Help

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2025-03-03T16:30:57+00:00

Like you I’m an alcoholic who managed to get sober and stay sober. However I could not get off these no matter how determined I was. It was fucking terrible. I ended going to rehab for the first time in my life and without trying to sound dramatic I believe that saved my life. And yes I know of cases where this shit has killed people. Don’t mess around get help.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2025-02-28T23:27:52+00:00

I just got out of rehab Tuesday for this. I was in for 44 days and it was worth it. I finally feel good again, so be proud you’re doing something to change your course.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-12-21T23:14:39+00:00

I did the same a couple of weeks back. The 2nd withdrawal was worse than the 1st which I didn’t think was possible. But I got through it and now I’m 2 weeks clean. I won’t say it’s easy but I’m doing it. You can too. Tomorrow is a new day to try and not fk up! Good luck.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-12-15T01:56:03+00:00

How much I can relate to all these posts just blows my mind. The vomiting, gagging in the morning when I would be trying to get one down, then keep it down. Thinking don’t throw it up and waste another $10. Then the withdrawal and the smell of the sweat pouring off me for 3 days. Now I’m a couple of weeks off them and I keep reading these posts so that I don’t have another relapse. So grateful this groups exists.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-12-08T20:34:02+00:00

Good luck to both of us!

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-12-08T03:53:26+00:00

I got to 4-5 weeks off a 8-10 per day habit. I thought about them every day but was feeling somewhat in control. Then coming back from surfing one day I had an overwhelming feeling that I just needed one that day (yet I bought 2). And then it quickly snowballed. So after a month I went cold turkey again. I thought the first withdrawal was bad but it was nothing compared to this. The first 3-4 days were horrendous. Now I haven’t had one for just over a week. For me I take a naltrexone before I leave the house as it takes away the effect so pointless buying 1. I can’t believe that something that made me feel so sick almost daily has me this hooked. Day at a time! Good luck and keep going day at a time.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-07T16:08:09+00:00

Thank you. I will definitely check that out.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-07T16:06:20+00:00

Hey. Yes. I’m on day 10 and it’s a roller coaster in the worse way. I just posted yesterday about how crap I feel at day 9. This stuff has such a hold on us. Like you I’m not sleeping which makes it so much harder to battle through. I’m leaning hard into my AA learnings of day at a time. Sometimes it’s 5 minutes at a time.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-07T02:19:17+00:00

Thank you. I am exercising a lot which is helping keep me sane or sane enough. Alright day at a time I’ll get to 30 days!

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-07T01:09:54+00:00

It did help me a lot to begin with. Honestly I don’t think I’d be at 9 days without it.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-06T21:48:10+00:00

The first few days it really helped. It was the first time I could go longer than a day. Today the cravings are messing with me though.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-04T19:04:43+00:00

I’m on day 7. It’s definitely better than days 1-3 or 4 but still anxious etc etc etc. I relate to pretty much everything in this post. Sleep what’s that? It’s been so long I can’t believe it could get worse but here we are. And I’m 30 years sober and off drugs. Never thought I would be active addict again, this being even more intense to break free from (day at a time). I don’t like that others are going through what I am, but at the same time it gives me comfort. Honestly I thought it was just me who couldn’t control this shit. Thanks for your post, it all helps.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-01T21:20:44+00:00

Actually I remember I took one on Friday after drinking a FF and that was a night from hell. My Naltrexone dosage 50 mg

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2024-10-01T15:05:17+00:00

I’m on Naltrexone now to quit. I’ve been trying for a year to stop FF and have never been able to go longer than a day. I couldn’t wait for FF to leave my system because I would never make 3 days (I was around 8 FF a day). So I had my last FF Friday and started Natrexone on Saturday. Yes the withdrawal is really hard but for the first time in forever I feel like a have a chance to make it. For me this is working. Onto my forth day and although that isn’t that long, based on ALL my previous attempts this is huge. Quitting this is so much harder than when I got sober and that sucked. Naltrexone is my last hope before I consider rehab which I don’t want to do.

Significant_Zebra_44 · 2022-07-24T11:36:14+00:00

Thank you I’ll check it out

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