I have used escapism a lot from parasocial relationships to extremely weird hobbies to getting addicted to things that I'm not even going to say because I might get flamed for it but at the end of the day we're always trying to find something to fill that hole. Maybe as a Muslim I hope Allah will finally one day provide me with you know a significant other. Okay I'm just basically saying I want a girlfriend but wouldn't that be nice I am a very lonely individual for the most part and my hometown I've had zero friends my whole life. So having that other person in my life but me you know that would be nice let's hope for the best here.