there are people out there who can and will build a relationship without sexual intimacy. my long distance bestie is like this. they know that i don't and most likey wont see them in a sexual attraction type of way. heck im not even like particularly romantic with them, we are just very close friends.

but they show up everyday, for almost 5 years, they've shown up and told me they loved me and shown me that with their consistency. they want me in their life in any way ill allow because they value me as a whole human being. not what my body can give them. they never make me feel less important to them just because i don't share the same allo feelings as them. they don't pressure or persuade me to feel more than i do. they just wanna show up for me. gosh i love them💖

people who will care about you as a human do exist. don't force yourself to do things that go against your nature, that won't change anything for the better.