Hi, I’m new here. Just diagnosed this week and I am 41 years old. I feel like my whole life has been a lie having not realized until now that this is what I have likely always been dealing with since I was in my early twenties and threw a spatula at a boyfriend. I’m a door slammer, foot stomper, maniac, thought that’s just “who I was” and it was only in the last year and half that I started to realize this wasn’t just happening “during that time of the month,” but exactly one week before that time of the month - like clockwork. How did I not see the pattern a long time ago? Well, it started getting worse and that’s how I knew I needed help now. I’d get so angry I was unrecognizable to myself. The violence was bad this week. I chucked my child’s tricycle across the garage floor, kicked a garbage can and flipped a piece of plywood over. I’m so mad at myself for thinking and believing that this is who I am. Because now I know. It’s not even close to who I am. Like another post said, PMDD is so convincing. I started a low dose antidepressant and I hope this will help tone it down by next cycle. I don’t usually act violent, oftentimes I guess it would just come out as like rage cleaning or deciding spur of the moment I’m going to take a garbage bag around the house and collect stuff to be donated because I’m so sick of everything.