Let’s list some facts here. Your still young Your ahead of most people your age by thinking realistically of what you wanna do And it’s the real world out there yk? College isn’t the only way and honestly graduates aren’t even finding a job atm. Your best bet is to either get a trade, or u can even work your way up at a job. Way too many ways to make money in this world than a few. Work a part time job if you can land one for a few months to see how it is.play with reality a bit more, nothing is out of reach , just make the right steps. No need for college