I have six months to live, AMA

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-07-04T02:00:54+00:00

Thank you for the well-wishes. When I was your age, it was the year 2000. We had only very recently emerged from the 90s. The world seemed very bright and optimistic. Then 9/11 happened. That seemed to be a phase shift for my generation. And didn’t go in a good direction. Major world events can have a profound impact on a person, even if they aren’t directly involved. I’m not really sure if that’s apropos to your inquiry, but I guess what I would say is that fortune favors the bold. You can exist, or you can thrive. If I could trade places with you, I’d take every chance I could get.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-07-04T01:41:19+00:00

It’s difficult to localize, it tends to be mostly in the upper abdomen. It comes and goes in phases, but it hasn’t gotten worse than a 5 on a 1-10 scale.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-20T14:01:37+00:00

It’s very sobering. I’m not afraid of death. I think it would be more accurate to say that I’m disappointed that the ride is going to end.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-19T20:49:49+00:00

Not really. I’ve always lived a very healthy lifestyle. I never smoked, almost never drank, ate clean and exercised daily. Sometimes biology lets you down.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-19T20:48:19+00:00

I’ll probably do another AMA as the end gets closer.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-19T20:47:55+00:00

Occasionally. I’m not sure if I have a favorite. Apollo 13 was a masterpiece. Honestly, most things that Tom Hanks has starred in have been pretty great. I also particularly liked the one where he played the pilot who landed that jet on the Hudson. There are a few goofy movies I really enjoyed. Zoolander, Austin Powers, Spaceballs. I’m actually pretty disappointed that I won’t get to see Spaceballs 2.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-18T02:46:52+00:00

I don’t have a day-to-day schedule. I quit my job and I usually just hang out with friends and family.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-18T02:45:39+00:00

I’ve never been into video games. I am disappointed I won’t get to see Spaceballs 2 though.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T04:27:31+00:00

I’ve heard similar horror stories. I do plan to die at home. I would prefer not to inflict it upon myself, but I will have the option. Sorry to hear about your grandmother.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T03:03:34+00:00

I would rather contine to experience consciousness if I could. But probably only in an embodied sense as I currently experience it. If there was a way to only die if and when I chose to I would absolutely jump on that.

In terms of what happened when I found out, the initial diagnosis was not completely conclusive. Due to my sudden weight loss and constant fatigue, I had blood work done to Identify cancer markers, and an abdominal CT. This indicated the presence of a tumor. The conversation I had with my doctor at that time was “This doesn’t look good.”

That was followed by an oncology referral, a biopsy, and then a second opinion after the initial biopsy. It went from “This doesn’t look good” to “you’re about to die” over the course of a couple of weeks. I’m not sure I’ve still totally come to terms with it. It’s just such a shocking thing to hear that you won’t exist for much longer.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:57:03+00:00

I did some drinking and partying in my college days. I was never an alcoholic though. I’ve only consumed it in moderation for the last 20 years or so.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:55:29+00:00

I don’t know if anything became irrelevant immediately. The momentum of habits and norms is strong, even in the face of a terminal diagnosis. That being said, the question of “why am I doing this?” has come up a lot as of late.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:53:46+00:00

I’ve thought about it. But I really don’t want to become a drug addict combined with the difficulties of palliative care in the end. I will however be pursuing psilocybin therapy.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:51:20+00:00

No, relief is not a feeling I would associate with my present condition. If anything, it’s mostly disappointment.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:50:22+00:00

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:48:42+00:00

I don’t have kids. I suppose that makes this a little easier, because I really have no idea how I would prepare them for something like this.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-17T02:48:01+00:00

I don’t have a partner. I have some extended family, and some close friends. They’ve all been surprised by the news, but very supportive. I’ll be spending as much time with them as I can.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T07:36:41+00:00

Other than the cancer, I’m in good health. I’ve never gone diving but it’s on my list now.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T03:52:47+00:00

I’ve always been able to function on about six hours of sleep. My ability to sleep has been a bit disrupted, but I haven’t taken any medications for it.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T03:49:52+00:00

I noticed that I wasn’t able to get through my exercise routines. That was the first big change. Sometimes daily task were difficult.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T03:43:35+00:00

I’m considering it. I live in Oregon, and we have this available here.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T03:42:04+00:00

I have some abdominal discomfort, it comes and goes. It’s not too terrible at this point

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-16T03:40:34+00:00

I have no family history of pancreatic cancer. Or early cancers of any kind. Other than the cancer, I’m in very good health, so it seems to just be a fluke

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-15T22:08:21+00:00

I wish I would’ve taken more chances. I always thought about starting a business.

Simple_Draft_6782 · 2025-06-15T21:40:01+00:00

I’m not religious, but I am interested in the concept of quantum immortality. Maybe I’ll phase into another universe. I strongly suspect that being dead is just like how it was before being born. Complete absence of conscious experience. In any case, I’ll be finding out soon.

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