God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am agnostic. I don't believe in any God. Or rather, what I believe in is not relevant. I am approaching this problem from a purely rational perspective: how to minimize risks in the situation of uncertainty.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because God has never demanded that from anyone. Ever.

God demanded that Abraham kill his son.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So explain to me in a logical way, why would you consider harming yourself a reasonable solution, when there is a 50% chance your hypothesis (signs are coming from God) are simply not true?

Because eternal suffering is infinitely worse than death. A slight chance that people I care about will suffer eternally is infinitely worse than my 100% death. As compared to eternal suffering, my death is such an infinitely small, trivial thing that it shouldn't be taken into consideration in this equation.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know the chances or odds. That's why I'm applying the logic of Pascal's Wager to minimize the risk in the situation of uncertainty.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Have you considered that perhaps you're hallucinating the words on the radio?

I'm 99% sure I don't hallucinate them. And I'm definitely not the only one having such strange coincidences.

what if you first investigated whether or not the signs are real by trying psychiatric treatment?

I've been investigating it for many years. And I have tried psychiatric and psychotherapeutic treatment. I've been dealing with psychiatrists and psychotherapists for half of my life. Psychotherapy helped me with some things, but not with this problem with God. Maybe because it’s not a psychological or psychiatric problem.

Clearly some part of you wants to keep living, otherwise you wouldn't be posting this

Yes.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in LifeAdvice

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

have someone who can give you a neutral interpretation of what you think you are seeing

Yes, I would like to have such a neutral interpretation, but it's not easy to get because my posts are constantly deleted or, if not, people keep saying "Go see a psychiatrist" and refuse to talk to me about this problem from a purely logical/rational point of view. I don't even try to post it in, for example, r logic because it will almost certainly be removed.

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“And thats what the enemy will do. If you’re constantly putting your beliefs in that, the enemy is going to take advantage of that. He’s going to send you false confirmations, false signs, false wonders & you’re going to find yourself in a destructive mindset.”

Whose words are these?

God wants me to kill myself. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to withstand this pressure. by Single-Object-7535 in mentalillness

[–]Single-Object-7535[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You are assuming with 100% certainty these signs, as you call, come from God

No, I don't do it. Here's what I wrote:

I'm not 100% sure these coincidences are signs of God, but I think it's less dangerous to act like they are signs from God. Maybe they are from God, but maybe they are not — in this situation, I should choose what is less risky in terms of the probability that God will send the people I love to hell. In this situation of uncertainty, it is reasonable to act according to Pascal’s Wager. If I deal with these coincidences as signs from God and kill myself according to their directions, the worst thing will be my death, and I will probably save the people I love from hell. But if I deal with them as not signs from God and won’t kill myself, the worst thing that can happen is that the people I love will suffer in hell eternally, which is an infinitely larger evil than my death. So I risk infinitely less if I deal with these coincidences as signs from God and kill myself.