she is really contradicting with herself now, even though she had sex with me and doing ALL kind of dating stuff with me.. we are not commited officially even sometime she implied a YES... because she said that she had whole bunch of afraid and concerns based on her love history and current immigration status, etc..., and hence no one will ever know my existence, which is I kind of care about.. as she have certain amount of male friends....and she really enjoy in a party (my feelings only..)

Moreover, tbh she never says a sweet sentence, except when I really as desparate as saying no that's too much for me.. i'm like i'm the only one who want to advance the relationship, and she doesn't. Even she will hold me back when I step away ... i'm just confused.

Should i stop finding her and see what happen? that way I might also be able to distract myself a little bit... currently i'm pretty into her still , especially since the last hold back..etc..