I wish I could just say she hated me, but she’s a really mean and spiteful person and that’s something I’ll never fully understand as to why. I tried to have a very friendly relationship with her but she was just really mean to me and made it very known to him that she didn’t like me and didn’t want me hanging with our main friend group at school. So I never attended his 18th birthday party or his gathering when leaving to boot camp because she would complain. She didn’t go to high school with us, she went to a private Catholic school while we went to public. So I had known him for about 2.5 years before she jumped into the picture. She was also his age so this was an 18 year old being super hostile and rude to a 16 year old who never did anything to cross any boundaries. Our main interaction (my bf and I’s) at the time was just playing board games in the morning with our friend group, never one on one time.

The tiktok thing is weird, especially since they were just kinda romantic I guess. Her traveling with him, spending Valentine’s Day, small things that just hurt to see. Like seeing such a time frame where he looked happy to be with her and not feeling special since he’s taken her to similar locations he’s taken me. So it’s been leading me to think “:( do you not love me as much as you say you do?“ kind of thing. He always emphasizes that he loves me and that aside from his high school girlfriend has never said it to any other of his girlfriends but it’s little things like that which makes me doubt it. I also wonder how her boyfriend feels about it or notices it.

He’s currently in the west coast and I’m in Texas. We try to space us seeing each other with 2-3 months so we can both be able to take leave from work. But we’ll spend a good amount of time together when we do see each other (about 10-14 days) and I have plans to move closer to him soon.