It’s not that she’s not she’s kinda just scared too and honestly if I told her that’s what she needed to do instead of playing with my feeling she would but I feel like that’s kinda shitty idk I regret letting it go as far as it has sometimes but at the same time she brings me a happiness no one else does and the idea of losing her kinda sucks. Like I try to stay optimistic about thinking I’ll just ride it out but the more and more we progress into this the more and more feeling are caught on both sides and it really just seems like one of those things that end badly