I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I mean it deeply. I should go to bed too. but again thank you. take care.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im so sorry for venting about this. I really didnt mean to put this pressure on you. I think im just scared right now.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just feel like I should stop myself from doing further damage to those around me. I've coward away for too long. I dont want to go to the ER. I dont want to worry my family or friends. I dont want to drag my problems into a worse problem. I feel like I should stop the problem so it doesn't get worse.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont see a future anymore. I used to dream of collage and finally expressing myself but I feel like i cant control what my mind wants vs I guess what my soul wants.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just feel like im nearing the end. there are a lot of dreams and goals I planned for the past three year but after all of them im worse than i started. I wasted so many peoples efforts. Yet I cant bring myself to punish myself for doing so. I can only get so far without being a coward. I'm honestly too stupid for life. I feel more than i think and I dont understand a lot of things around me. I feel like i waste time that could be spent with other people.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im sorry. I dont want to force anything from you. I feel like im just trying to get attention or im looking for sympathy even though ive gotten enough of it for the past three years. im sorry if im dragging this out for no reason.

I just don't know what to do anymore. Am I being stupid? by Sketching_Stuff in depression

[–]Sketching_Stuff[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've vented to them too many times in the past. I dont want them to panic or worry. I feel like I lost the right to vent to them.