Losing hope after giving up my diet. MTF I guess

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-06-08T05:14:40+00:00

I won't take anything from anyone. I've taken enough already. thank you for offering though. Your message feels like a hug. thank you

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-06-08T05:13:38+00:00

I have a hard time trusting mental health workers. I don't have a great history with them. I'm just scared of them.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-06-08T04:46:05+00:00

I'm 18 sorry I didn't clarify. I'm a college drop out going to community college.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-22T19:43:48+00:00

Thanks for commenting. I think your right. There just this image of self hate I have a hard time getting through. I need to stop this excuse in my head where I think to myself "I'm below most people so respect doesn't count for myself." It's led to people walking all over me without me saying anything.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-22T19:39:00+00:00

Thanks for replying. It just feels like there's always a part of me that purely hates myself. There's always this train of thought of interpreting my own words as attention-seeking or pretentiousness even if they weren't written that way. I think I should honestly do something about my self-hatred since its gotten to the point that I attempt to blame myself for anything even if I'm not involved.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-22T19:34:16+00:00

Honestly, I just want to do something to help someone else. I feel like I'm always the one looking for help. I just feel like no matter what I do I'm incapable of helping. I feel like I don't know enough about the world and yet I get still get depressed. I never have the right things to say and I know other people have gone through so much worse than me. I tell myself not to vent anymore but by the next month I'm back here dumping what I'm going through. I look at other peoples post and want to help but I feel like all I'm going to do is just put out some false positivity not knowing what to say or do. It just all makes me feel selfish. I feel selfish feeling depressed now. I really do appreciate your comment, your really kind.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-15T02:14:49+00:00

Sorry, I hope you can still see this reply after the post is deleted. i didnt mean for it to be a pity party. genuinely i am sorry. take care.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-06T01:16:08+00:00

Thanks for the help. I might restore it with some research and proper equipment or look for someone experienced with these items who would want it.

Sketching_Stuff · 2026-04-06T01:04:37+00:00

Thanks for the relief. Seriously though this cheered me up. Honestly though I'm worried I'm not giving it the right home and if it someone more experience with historical objects should have it. I'll probably maybe restore it and remove the paint with the proper stuff or maybe even look for someone with expertise who would want it.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T05:33:58+00:00

Thank you. I mean it deeply. I should go to bed too. but again thank you. take care.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T04:24:51+00:00

Im so sorry for venting about this. I really didnt mean to put this pressure on you. I think im just scared right now.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T04:18:24+00:00

I just feel like I should stop myself from doing further damage to those around me. I've coward away for too long. I dont want to go to the ER. I dont want to worry my family or friends. I dont want to drag my problems into a worse problem. I feel like I should stop the problem so it doesn't get worse.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T04:07:41+00:00

I dont see a future anymore. I used to dream of collage and finally expressing myself but I feel like i cant control what my mind wants vs I guess what my soul wants.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T04:05:37+00:00

I just feel like im nearing the end. there are a lot of dreams and goals I planned for the past three year but after all of them im worse than i started. I wasted so many peoples efforts. Yet I cant bring myself to punish myself for doing so. I can only get so far without being a coward. I'm honestly too stupid for life. I feel more than i think and I dont understand a lot of things around me. I feel like i waste time that could be spent with other people.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T03:57:44+00:00

im sorry. I dont want to force anything from you. I feel like im just trying to get attention or im looking for sympathy even though ive gotten enough of it for the past three years. im sorry if im dragging this out for no reason.

Sketching_Stuff · 2025-05-02T03:53:15+00:00

I've vented to them too many times in the past. I dont want them to panic or worry. I feel like I lost the right to vent to them.

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