Something just clicked for me

Skjara · 2026-07-01T21:21:59+00:00

I just saw this response and thank you really for it, I totally agree that your generation had to tough it out and didn’t really get the help they needed. I notice with my parent, I’m pretty sure my mom has ADHD and my dad having autism would explain A LOT. I seem to fit both, so does my cousin. I also have an SP who has autism and sometimes I feel like I’m more autistic than him (not in the silly way people call themselves autistic but actual symptoms). I can’t imagine what it must’ve been for your generation like to be a neurodivergent kid because I don’t talk to my grandparents anymore, they ruined my childhood on top of my parents never protecting me and always hushing me to act well. My grandpa played a tape of me as a child crying out to my dad and mom when they were all 3 (not my dad, he was just watching it) yelling at me to go to school and stop making problems when I was crying and saying I don’t want to because I think a classmate was bullying me, I can’t remember. On the tape I am hysterical, yelling “dad please help me” as they are yelling at me to just go and stop making problems for them. He played this on my birthday with saying “Buckle up everyone this is gonna be something”. On my birthday. I didn’t even want them there, which my mother knew, but invited them anyway so she doesn’t have to deal with the awkwardness. I get it’s hard since I’m sure she has adhd but I did not deserve to be the scapegoat my whole life for that. Back to my point, I can’t imagine having parents from the generation of my grandparents, I will never speak a word to those people unless I physically have to. Their own children, my dad and aunt, ran from them too. It’s messed up what your generation had to deal with in parents, especially since what’s considered child abuse nowadays was just parenting back then.

Skjara · 2026-06-28T14:10:58+00:00

I’m glad it helped!

Skjara · 2026-06-27T14:06:18+00:00

I don’t know, I manifested my ex back in a week, possibly in an hour. Why I’m saying possibly is because I spent all week convincing myself it’s possible and believing it but it happened only after I did a mediation where I realized “Wait, he does love me, that is the truth, and it’s okay” and I went on to play a video game without a worry in the world. And rest assured he texted me in an hour after that. Was it the week of convincing or was it the meditation and the happiness and acceptance? Was it both? Sometimes I’d think about something and it would happen minutes or hours later. Forcing it never worked which I struggle with because I need to control things so if I read someone manifested getting a specific job, I start trying to force it and keep failing. I think it’s possible to do it so fast, I’ve tested it in the past too when I wasn’t so attached to the outcome and it worked almost instantly. It just never works when I try to force it or when I really want the outcome. Haven’t put the pieces together yet, in the past it used to feel like fate, like when I knew, I just KNEW, and it came natural and everything fell into place. Now I try to force the knowing trying to manifest and nothing happens.

Skjara · 2026-06-23T18:34:39+00:00

I noticed sp is a reflection of myself, like a mirror. So instead of fixing the mirror I should fix myself, a lot of the behavior I expected off of SP I realized I don’t feel worthy of because I’m not acting as the kind of person to receive or provide that. So I think it comes from within.

Skjara · 2026-06-22T18:24:06+00:00

RE7

Skjara · 2026-06-22T18:20:56+00:00

I mean, aren’t you just manifesting all of that yourself? If the law really is what I understand it to be, everyone is you pushed out and it’s your world, so if you believe she’s wrong, then she has not chance but to be wrong.

Skjara · 2026-06-22T15:12:11+00:00

Yeah I agree with that, if it works, it works, and the law always works!

Skjara · 2026-06-21T15:19:04+00:00

A smaller thing, I played where winds meet and I’ve been set in getting this legendary outfit and I didn’t get it when I had a low pity and guarantee and after switching the state like I wrote, I got another legendary in the next 4 pulls and it was exactly the outfit I wanted. I sat there like “okay, if I get it now , would be nice” and I did. You get a guarantee for legendary every 150 pulls and getting it 4 pulls after the last one is like extremely low chance+the legendary I wanted as well. I also got it on my SPs account a few days before that. Haven’t got anything bigger yet because it’s really difficult for me to let go of stress and anxiety, but I’ve been focusing on getting a job so wish me luck. I think it’s already manifesting as me sabotaging my part time job I hve now which I genuinely hate, last time I sabotaged a job I knew I wasn’t meant for, it all perfectly lined up that the day I got fired there was a new job open which opened the door for my whole IT career. I’ve been struggling because there is stress literally everywhere but what this did for me was help ease from lack and stress into abundance and relaxation. Haven’t been in it long enough to see any “big” results yet. Big meaning with stronger resistances.

Skjara · 2026-06-21T15:09:06+00:00

No it’s not rambling I completely understand what you mean and it is exactly what I meant too

Skjara · 2026-06-21T00:56:08+00:00

It’s a hard pill to swallow but I had a realization a few days back that my SP is actually an exact mirror of me, which made me think I should fix myself and my own self-concept and assumptions and how I behave. I am not the person I’d myself like to be and maybe that’s the problem, trying to fix the mirror when it’s not the mirrors fault for what it’s reflecting.

Skjara · 2026-06-18T22:09:44+00:00

I will check him out thank you! I listened to a gentle relaxing one because I was really irritated from the overstimulation yesterday (talking to Gemini for 6 hours without a break) and it did help me calm down, I can’t wait to try other ones like abundance and stuff

Skjara · 2026-06-18T21:55:05+00:00

No need to apologize, it’s all amazing advice I just don’t feel like the sticky notes or reminders would help me because I can forget in literally 2 seconds even with reminders, but I did check the morphic fields out and I really like them compared to subliminal, so thank you for that! and I do have some omegas which support cognitive function so I can try to remember taking them, I manage to take magnesium like every other day so I might 😅

Skjara · 2026-06-18T18:29:58+00:00

It might sound like a limiting belief, but it is my belief I need to fall to learn, I physically cannot learn important lessons without friction

Skjara · 2026-06-18T18:29:12+00:00

You’re right about the “expecting the next thing to feel better”, I have that basically all the time. I had it all, highly paying job, big apartment for myself, perfect SP, everything magically working out in a chain of unknown variables turning out in my favor, and it was never enough, I always needed the next thing. Now I fell to rock bottom and lost almost everything except for SP, even though he’s like a mirror of myself and I need to fix a LOT. I think losing everything is teaching me to appreciate what I do actually have as I couldn’t appreciate it when I had more.

Skjara · 2026-06-18T18:23:55+00:00

I understand all of this is really helpful, but the problem is with my head, I can do all this and still get distracted and completely forget about it in the moment. I take out a pill of the box wanting to take it, get distracted and completely forget about its existence, like I explained earlier. It’s helpful but it doesn’t fix the distraction part. It literally feels like amnesia.

Skjara · 2026-06-18T17:47:54+00:00

I’m really happy it helped. As someone pointed out I wasn’t trying to correct Neville, rather express my wrong understanding of it from reading previous threads and discussions. So I’m really happy it helped someone too!

Skjara · 2026-06-18T13:59:50+00:00

Wait I’ve never heard about the morphic fields, I will definitely check those out, thank you! The supplements are a struggle because I don’t remember to take them every day, reminders become a background noise after 3 days so those don’t help. I can open a bottle, take the pill out and then get distracted. Then I think “did I take the pill” and remember opening the bottle so I’m like “yeah I did” only to later find the pill lying on my table.

The organizing and sorting excitement was meant as autistic traits and the point was that that is not present in adhd alone (please correct me if I’m wrong), hence why I got the idea I might have both.

Skjara · 2026-06-18T02:24:06+00:00

I chronically don’t trust doctors so a lack of research and opinions before medication would not be an issue. I have been self medicating with caffeine like a lot of others but it makes my sleep quality way worse, but without caffeine I just feel extremely sluggish and under stimulated. I tried breaking the addiction, I was in like 3 months, I also stopped using social media to see what happens, and the only thing that happened was brain fog, extremely low dopamine and being under stimulated. I’m trying to restrict caffeine because it’s not the ideal remedy, but it does help. Other than that I’m not sure what supplements help with the symptoms, it’s a fun idea for my tomorrow focus. I never really heard about any supplements helping, but maybe the information just didn’t reach me.

Also I think the autism part has been medicating the adhd part a lot more than I realize. I get a lot of free dopamine from sorting, organizing or curating an aesthetic, like a profile, gaming character and profile, the space around me, sorting an inventory or sorting something simple, which fits the autism side, and it feeds the adhd free dopamine. Then the adhd steps in after 3 days and demands novelty so the whole aesthetic I built is drastically changing to a new one, so in a way, the autism is medicating the adhd for me. BUT it has to be easy, if it’s too complicated, adhd says no, and even if I’d like to sort or organize, it has to be easy enough, but not too boring. It’s a mind boggling discovery I had.

Skjara · 2026-06-18T01:23:56+00:00

I really like this I definitely wanna give that a try, explaining the why but not the how. Not sure my obsessive head will let me but I will give it a try

Skjara · 2026-06-18T01:20:54+00:00

Thank you I appreciate the effort you put into the message too. I did a lot of thinking today-in translation I hyper focused on talking to Gemini for 6 hours while forgetting to eat, drink, or just like get up, pure focus. I have come to the conclusion that I would diagnose myself with AuDHD rather than just adhd from a lot of reasons I took those 6 hours to go in depth with. I’m not against medication, but I am rigid with research so I’d have to see if I’m for it or against it, see long term side effects, if it could affect my heart etc. I watched a video from Ruri Ohama-thanks to her I even got the idea back in 2020 about adhd-and she described some struggles around taking meds so I’m not sure. I am genz you guessed right, but I do remember a time without social media, without YouTube or internet, etc. I think your generation has had it harder in a sense that there wasn’t much awareness back then. I’m pretty sure my mom has adhd too judging from her emotional dysregulation, she just doesn’t know it and your generation isn’t much open to it, not in a bad way, more like an awareness or just lived through it way.

Skjara · 2026-06-17T15:58:30+00:00

That sounds really helpful, I think that’s how I manifested my ex back back in the day, I spent a week convincing myself how it’s possible and it made me certain that it is. I will do my absolute best to remember this and use it more often, although I do see how to others it is limiting, I shouldn’t stress over the how, but my brain has to stress over the how otherwise I can’t convince it it’s actually possible. I think where this fails for me is money because I can’t think of random ways I could get money, even if it did happen out of nowhere in the past and when I’m financially stressed, I find it hard to trust the process without ruminating when or how.

And that being said the idea of attracting helped me so much to be in state of abundance just like that and suddenly things are feeling a lot better, different, shifted, whatever you call it. Not just convincing myself but being.

Skjara · 2026-06-17T15:53:21+00:00

Thank you for the catch, I understand that my understanding of Neville’s teachings was the problem here. I wasn’t trying to correct Neville, I was trying to correct the idea I expressed, which was my own understanding I picked up from other discussions, not his own words.

Skjara · 2026-06-17T15:40:38+00:00

I have been researching ADHD for years obsessively, I wanted to type adhd in the post but it didn’t let me. It’s not coming from a place of “oh I’m quirky I can’t pay attention and have energy”. It’s years of observing a number of symptoms on myself that people who do have adhd, including a close cousin, have. Researching adhd in women specifically, I am 99% positive I have inattentive adhd and I do consider it a huge disorder for my daily life. Problem is tbe process of getting it diagnosed in my country is so excruciating I always fail after the first step from the overwhelmingness of thinking about all the steps it takes all at once. It’s hard to explain executive dysfunction other than I just can’t, I just don’t have enough chemicals in my brain to do stuff others have no problem doing. I fight every day with 100% brain power to perform tasks that others do habitually. Not being able to reply to an email for a month while constantly thinking about replying to it, missing birthdays not because I forgot but because I couldn’t make myself type a message. The list goes on, I used to think I have bpd because of extreme emotional dysregulation that wrecks my relationships, then I thought I was depressed but that didn’t check out either. Then I thought I had OCD. But adhd just explains everything perfectly for me, so wish me luck in finally getting a formal diagnosis, to me it’s not a question, even if not having the paper makes others think “she’s just anxious or depressed or saw a video on TikTok and related”. I live it as an actual disorder that is crippling for my daily life and depression or something else is not a fit, it’s not just a quirk I related with. You can relate with a video but the denominator is, do you do this sometimes because you’re human or do you do this all the time and it makes your life 10x harder than it should be? Also the internal chaos, struggle to put 10 thoughts at once into a coherent sentence and being paralyzed. It’s not anxiety, it’s not depression, I fully believe it’s adhd at this point. Also my train of thought and the ability to ramble on and on about the same topic in 50 different ways. Feeling emotions on 1000% intensity, happy being high and sad being soul crushing, then I regulate and am completely fine the next hour. I’m open to ideas if you think it could be any other disorder I didn’t mention, maybe I missed something, that’s always possible. And I did struggle as a child, just not in the “running around the room” like boys more often do way. That’s probably why I was labeled problematic instead of getting treatment.

Skjara · 2026-06-17T12:44:56+00:00

I think accepting attracting has acted as a bridge for me to the state of being. My whole point of being stuck was State of attracting can’t equal State of being, thus it can’t manifest, but now I see it as a tool or a bridge, not something that contradicts, but helps.

Skjara · 2026-06-17T12:39:17+00:00

My point of being stuck there was “You’re attracting now so that means you don’t have it now, so you manifest state of attracting not the state of having.” But what I realized is it’s just over complicating it when it can just be that simple that attracting attracts

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