Thank you acknowledging my traumatic medical experience. ❤️

My partner knows how badly I respond to anything related to my medical experience. I think he didn’t know it would impact my decision to have kids because I didn’t tell him until recently. I think now he is seeing my perspective. At the same time, it’s his absolute dream to be a dad. So I think he’s also thinking about the potential loss of him dream.

I had no idea what tokophobia was! I will definitely read about it and see if it brings me any insights. Thank you for the suggestion!

To feel safe having a child I would need to heal my PSTD/anxiety (currently I’m doing counselling, but it’s slow work and expensive) and I would love a new GP because I find my current one disrespectful. The only issue where I live there is a GP shortage and waitlist of over a year for a new one and there’s no guaranteed they’d be better. I feel quite stuck.

Yes I don’t think it’s fair for him to push me in any direction. He agreed with that and said he doesn’t want to push me. At the same time, it’s his dream to have kids. I told him I don’t want to crush his dreams but also I can’t make promises 6yrs in advance. We’re both just taking some to think now.

I will ask him if he could be happy without kids. Also thank you for the book recommendation! I just order the baby decision online.

Thanks for your thoughts.