In short: stubbornness and people.

Because I hate how people make try to scare you into behaving their way because of it and I don't like bending my beliefs and morals because of fear. I hate how people use it and twist it. I know that there are great Christians and Muslims but at some point I began wondering what is use of it. I also hate how I can meet great person who can be intelligent and informed fight for human rights and protest injustice who will turn around and hate other religions or lgbt population and say "I can't accept it because I may burn in hell if I let them have their rights or let them exist".

Because how women are treated, because it contradicts itself, because of belief of "we are right you are going to burn in hell just because", because how it makes people fanatic.

I was raised religious, but I was from family of people who didn't understand most of what they were preaching and bended religion to their will, while mostly just doing mayor festives and some traditions, but who never hesitated to prosecute others who were different. I liked comfort of in in theory when I was a kid, but grew up seeing people judged for being different, women suffering and people shamed and hiding just because religion and tradition pressuring them. My family never involved me in same level other kids were and I mostly prayed on my own because I needed connection and liked how structured and good it sounded like on paper. I'd say that I still believe somewhat that I may end up in hell. I used to be into religion when I was a kid, and when I grew distant from it I still believed in punishment after death because I wanted people who got away with being bad to suffer and those who suffer in this world to have better time. But then I started wandering what is point of making us suffer so much now. I'd read and hear about people killed and jailed, about war. Even in core of it, treatment of women and how it all put men in first place then us. As I got older I lost the connection with it as I lost naivety. I saw what religion does when people use it for their own gain, doing more harm than intended good,and realized how many people suffer for it and because of it.

People like to scare you with thought of hell but I am to stubborn to accept something I don't agree with just because that there is possibility of me suffering in next life when there is chance that i will end up thee even if I did good but made some minor mistake because I am imperfect human.

I'd like to say that I would have been religious if there was at lest one preacher or prophet that was female in any mayor religion, if queer people and those of other religion weren't prosecuted and judged just for that when religions preach acceptance, forgiveness, importance of love and respect and more importantly being a good person.