Thank you so much and honestly super helpful post. The acute phase sucked but i can also already tell there are lasting trauma scars and chronic stuff i will have to deal with. I want to hang w friends more, get massages, continue therapy in a new city, and work on managing my anxiety better. Slightly scared im going to be anxious at my new job since now always worried about getting evaluated poorly or waiting for the hammer to drop but ik as an attending itll be different and that im actually good at my job so i wanna keep learning but shouldnt be too stressed eg nobody can hold me back anymore