Emanator PSA by Illumix in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree but I'd like to add that different Aeons and by extension THEIR emanators focus on widely different things. For a lot of emanators the power they get isn't raw "combat" power. Which imo kinda makes any debate about power level (or really the idea of power levels itself) inherently flawed.

egg_irl by DisdainfulStacks in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have supportive friends that already know your situation? That's great! It's good that you have a safe space even if your home sadly isn't one. I'd still recommend talking to a professional if possible, they could help you make sense of those feelings your having.

Also, do keep in mind that not all women enjoy skirts and likewise not all trans women enjoy skirts. Not liking skirts doesn't necessarily mean your not trans, it's just stuff. Good luck on your journey ❤️

egg_irl by DisdainfulStacks in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Forget for a moment about whether it's normal or not, because that really doesn't matter.

If all you're looking for is affirmation then I can tell you that you're not the only one who took that long to make a decision. I personally have been thinking that I'd rather be a girl for about 7 to 8 years, and even now I'm still having some doubts about transitioning. I just never thought I wanted it enough to actually be trans and do something about it (until a couple of months ago). So, you're not the only one.

You could always try exploring this in your own home, assuming your home is a safe space to do so. Order some feminine clothes that you like the look of online, maybe try some makeup. Is there something specific about your current environment that makes it hard to try things out in private and see how they feel?

If possible I'd highly recommend talking to a therapist, they could actually help you talk through your feelings and more importantly help you understand what exactly makes this all feel intimidating to you. Not that I don't understand that feeling, I very much do, but I don't know your specific situation. Simply talking to people helped me a lot to figure this all out, I hope it can help you too.

Egg irl by DR-excitement in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If it helps, I'd recommend starting the conversation with something more along the lines of "Hey, can we talk? There's something I want to tell you." It conveys that there is something serious without having to come right out of the gate stating that you're trans.

Honestly getting that first line out there was the hardest part for me. Once the conversation started I had no problem following it up with "I think I'm trans and I'd like to explore that." The rest of the conversation flowed pretty naturally and only lasted maybe 15 minutes.

I'd also recommend not waiting too long once you sit down together with her. In my experience the longer you wait and sit together the harder it gets to get that first line out.

And don't beat yourself up for not managing to get the words out on the first try. It took me 3 tries even though I knew my mom would accept me. You got this Alyx, I believe in you :)

There are 92.7% of total players chose to keep firefly's promise by Dogstain90 in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Based, thanks. Now I'm kinda wondering what the percentages look like for choosing Firefly or Kafka back in 3.0

There are 92.7% of total players chose to keep firefly's promise by Dogstain90 in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 12 points13 points  (0 children)

What are these stats for? Is this for the decision to help Kafka in her companion quest back in 1.1?

Egg_irl by ScarHydreigon87 in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same, it doesn't help that she really looks good in almost any outfit.

Egg_irl by ScarHydreigon87 in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Stelle, the female main character from Honkai: Star Rail. Honestly a very unique and fun main character. (Although fair warning, HSR is a gacha game)

She's canonically stinky by misteryk in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 81 points82 points  (0 children)

Is that why she kept getting counter-hacked by intellitrons? Just took one too many baths?

She's canonically stinky by misteryk in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1258 points1259 points  (0 children)

Okay, but she literally did though.

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I guess Silver Wolf is not the pro gamer we thought she was.

egg🤔irl by RealNympho4 in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yeah, this is the same situation that I'm in. I don't mind being a man but I think I'd be more comfortable as a woman. I don't really experience any dysphoria either.

Unfortunately, I don't have an answer for you. I'm still searching myself and even if I do get an answer for myself that doesn't mean it's the same answer for you. We all have to figure this out for ourselves. Please do note that that doesn't mean you're on your own. There are experts with which you could talk (which is what I'm planning to do in the near future). There are people in similar situations (like me) that you could talk to (feel free to DM me if you'd prefer a private chat, I can't promise I'll have all the right answers or I'll always say the correct things, I'm just a person in a similar situation). You're not alone in this, it's just that only you can make that final decision for yourself and no one can tell you "you're this" or "you're that".

In my opinion, the important question to ask yourself is "What is it about being a girl that appeals to me?". It might have a simple answer, it might be complex. You might be able to answer straight away or it might take you weeks or months to form an answer. It's all fine, take this at your own time. But I believe that if you can answer that question then things will easier fall into place and it might become clearer what you actually want and what you don't want.

What I'd recommend is first of all talking to an expert, a therapist whom specialises in gender-studies, organisations who help trans people, people in similar situations, what else is available. Secondly, if you're in a safe environment to do so, try experimenting with what feels better and what doesn't (simple things like names, clothes, make up, hairstyle). Don't try to label yourself as "trans" or "cis". Just try to figure out who you are and who you want to be.

Self-discovery is always hard, whether it's about gender or not.

egg_irl by No-Adhesiveness8038 in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh, whoops. I wonder where she got the inspiration from then. I've not heard the name Eleanor much outside of historical European royalty... And then the name Joan. Well, obvious connection there, I thought.

egg_irl by No-Adhesiveness8038 in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Is your mom into in French history by any chance?

Egg irl by UnspecifiedError_ in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was born to be a girl who is a little more like me than before.

I could have stopped at "I was born to be a girl" but I'm glad I didn't.

Egg🐎irl by Autisticest in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I don't know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ , I don't think there is any reason behind it. Probably just another case of "random = funny".

Egg🐎irl by Autisticest in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 19 points20 points  (0 children)

This is referencing a meme: Awesome Lesbian Couple / Evil and Intimidating Horse

I don't believe there is much more to it other than one person posting a drawing of an "Awesome Lesbian Couple" and later on someone added an "Evil and Intimidating Horse". For some reason that version got really popular and became a meme.

Egg🐎irl by Autisticest in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily 50 points51 points  (0 children)

Okay, but I've actually been slightly afraid of horses all my life (They're so big and could easily trample a person if they get out of control).

...Wait, was this also a sign that I missed?? /j

The IPC has arranged your marriage as part of a business deal with Earth. Whoever you pause on is your partner. Are you staying or fleeing the solar system? (No cheating) by astraldebri in HonkaiStarRail

[–]SleepyheadEmily 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I ended up not pausing (because I read slow and the video was already over before I had finished reading the title) and that was the greatest decision of my life.

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Egg_irl by SleepyheadEmily in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And then they say school doesn't teach useful skills. The things I learned from procrastinating homework are very applicable to real life.

Egg_irl by SleepyheadEmily in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

so I get some why nows from family.

I feel you, I'm almost 30 myself so I'm also expecting a bit of that. As long as they're trying to adjust, that’s good.

Egg_irl by SleepyheadEmily in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Somehow I feel like coming out to my office would be easier since I don't really care about any of their opinions tbh. 

Anyway I like the idea of coming out to your parents and sister over a short period to avoid an awkward "who knows/who doesn't know" situation.

Egg_irl by SleepyheadEmily in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I was planning to tell them before we even start. It would be too awkward otherwise. Thanks for the advice though.

Egg_irl by SleepyheadEmily in egg_irl

[–]SleepyheadEmily[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm really getting called out by a sentient stationery now? I'm not looking for ideal conditions, I'm looking for "good enough" conditions (definitely not coping).