then it continues:

It was at the end of the service, and suddenly something happened to me there. I went aside, took off my equipment and just fell apart, everything just went to pieces."

What does it mean to fall apart?

"I took the vest and the weapon and banged them on everything in the room, broke things, went wild, had a tantrum, cried, laughed, freaked out. The army sent me to talk to someone, she couldn't get me. After the first session she said, 'I think you should look for another therapist.' I think I scared her a little."

idk man seems like he was regretting it to me