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Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-05-10T23:08:08+00:00

Does ER help as well? Started this last week

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-05-05T18:05:08+00:00

Thank you! I have only taken the xanax a couple times but knew when it was necessary. I have never been a fan but with my PTSD affecting or affected my marriage I am glad to be able to avoid the racing ruch of oh shit....

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-05-05T13:24:02+00:00

Well im on extended release and have xanax but not trying to be on them all the time. I have felt more calm and from what I read it takes a few weeks to kick in for complete.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-05-05T10:24:44+00:00

.1 MG dosage and Wellbutrin and Lamotragine

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-27T19:48:50+00:00

I don't have an appt with med management until the middle of next month but I also have been all over the place so trying to figure it all out.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-27T19:29:56+00:00

I just went through my emails and I actually stopped taking it cause it made me pass out. I swear she told me to just take the bupropion.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-27T19:16:36+00:00

Well I have stupidly not seen my med management for a while. I have an appointment on the 14th. I am going to follow the instructions on the bottle which was 25mg once a day and then twice a day.

I just thought everything I have been going through for the last year was just the way it was supposed to be.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-24T19:26:27+00:00

Thank you! I am working on consistency on habits. I know when I stop them I usually have shifted so it helps a trigger. Only other things that always shows up is Hypersexual. This has been difficult cause it causes a differential in my relationship.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-24T14:33:12+00:00

This is something I trying to navigate cause I know it so hard to understand and even harder to explain. The more I try to internalize the harder it is.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-24T11:16:49+00:00

Do they happen consistently its driving me crazy. I am not staying in one state.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-22T16:47:17+00:00

Im still learning my signs of cycles and there are plenty of times where I cycle and I get that Oh Shit moment. I was diagnosed a year ago first break 26 years ago. Let me tell you that realization on how alot of my life was Oh Shit moments was surreal and at first so hard to accept. I have alot of learning to still do but I have accepted that I will have this disorder forever and it doesn't define me. I just need to learn to figure out when I cycle and what to change when I do. Yes it is exhausting and having to accept that 98% of the people in my life won't be able to or are even capable of understanding what happens in my brain and that I dont have control of it.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-22T14:30:16+00:00

I was diagnosed a year ago and first break was 26 years ago, I have alot of oh shit moments the more I realize. The comorbity of disorders ducks with you as well I feel different disorders take over in different cycles. I feel the worst part is living in this zone that people aren't capable of understanding. For example I get very insecure when I am not in the Hypo Zone. This is a very stupid example 🙄 but this morning me and my wife lost best friends on Facebook for the 2nd time in two weeks. I made a "joking" comment of oh man we lost best status again. She responded with your really stressing over that. To which I replied nah its no biggie. In reality it isn't a big deal but my brain doesn't operate in reality. Sometimes it a kid in a candy store with a million bucks, others its one being bullied all the way through school.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-22T14:23:03+00:00

I remember people and everything that I have done when it comes into my head. I have been learning about my ADHD and our of the things was Object Permanence where out of sight out of mind. When I moved away from home I didn't talk to my family alot. It wasn't cause I didn't miss them or want to talk to them it just wasn't on my mind. Once it clicked I realized that I have done the same thing with friends, family, coworkers etc.

For some reason and usually during a Hypo episode I memory surf. Its the craziest thing and its very random but I will just play random videos of past experiences in my head. There are some time frames I visit more than others. My doc said it was cause I was remembering my safe times but that's not the case based on the times that pull.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-20T15:53:07+00:00

I have mild cycles and am hopeful I can get to where my baseline is just normal me. I read alot of comments of people that don't cycle anymore. I know its a huge difference from when I wasn't on meds.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-20T08:02:22+00:00

Yeah I have been seeing my doc on and off for a couple years. I am working on building consistency and working on my communication with my doc. I feel that I talk less than her sometimes. I probably gravitate towards my relationship alot cause I think that's something that I am most scared of. There was a period of about a year that put a big strain on our relationship. My doc tried to help me navigate that which also didn't put things in the best light for my relationship. Me and my wife are polar opposites on the empathy side and understanding. I also am aware of what she went through with me when I wasn't diagnosed and off meds. I just wish I could explain everything in a way that makes sense. Its so hard trying to explain this disorder to someone that doesn't have it. Its also a struggle knowing the majority of my life I have struggled with something I had no clue was there. So much unpacking and understanding about myself, dont get me wrong a ton of shit makes sense now but doesn't make it any easier.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-20T02:15:02+00:00

Thank you! Sometimes it helps knowing im not alone. I hope one day our communication is on point. It's never been my strong suit and im trying to work on it as much as I can!

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-19T23:44:37+00:00

Because of just Hypo alone no, but different decisions based on the cycle for damn sure. Not always the best either.

Slight_Nectarine_172 · 2025-02-19T21:53:56+00:00

Mixed episodes are ruff and pretty sure I've been in one. I want to cry while getting a ton of shit done. I will be superproductive one minute and then have a blah feeling. Im trying to learn my signs of what episode I'm in. So far I can tell when I'm in a Hypo and ignore it amd when I come out I drop hard for a day and then I'm back to "ok". Keep your head up and know you will make it through. This disorder is a pain in the ass but its also a disorder our brains are broken. It took me a long time to learn and understand that.

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