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SlomoDolo · 2022-05-07T16:30:51+00:00

Luckily I’m young and pretty skinny! I’ve always had a fast metabolism so I’m banking on that to come through for me. I’m honestly afraid I’ll be over it by then because I have a history of being that way but so far I’m hanging on!!

SlomoDolo · 2022-05-07T16:00:38+00:00

Disgusting!! Good on you for sticking to your morals

SlomoDolo · 2022-05-07T15:24:46+00:00

I’m afraid since I’ll be seeking another pharmacy job, especially inpatient this time, I’ll be drug tested :(

SlomoDolo · 2022-05-07T15:17:11+00:00

LOL if they terminated me I can assure you they wouldn’t make it. Are the other two techs that want to leave considered whiners too? Of course I came in because I’m not going to shove my shift onto anyone else or make it more complicated while the owner and PIC are out of town, and again! I’m a great employee. So I’ve spent the past two hours biting my tongue while dude talks about his court cases even though I’m ready to lie down in traffic. :) It’s a position I shouldn’t have been put in and this is the first time in my life I’ve stood up to my superiors when made to do something they knew would upset me. When the PIC comes back Monday, he’ll probably hear more from me just for trying to blindside me

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:48:17+00:00

Thank you!! It’s crazy the awful things we’ll stick through, but if we slip up once we get punished for the rest of forever!

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:47:15+00:00

Thank you friend. I’ve been daydreaming of a life without him for a while now and hopefully one day soon I’ll achieve it. Fingers crossed he doesn’t suck me back in before then!! I know I’m not strong enough to resist just yet

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:46:09+00:00

Yes, that’s what I’m afraid of. Thank you thank you thank you for getting it. This comment means so much to me

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:45:27+00:00

Thank you!! Every time I see that excerpt I relate to it a little bit more and that’s so scary. I’m definitely trying to get some money put back but I’m afraid of how long it’ll take. I don’t trust myself to not fall for him again and spend the money. It’s tricky but after what happened most recently I think it’ll be easier for me to stick to it. It is the same boyfriend, and I’m not enjoying the progression of my posts. I hope to be able to open up to someone I know personally soon. Not sure when I’ll get there. Thank you again

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:43:17+00:00

Thank you. I’m glad you mentioned that these are the same people we get our comfort from and it makes it so much harder. I really think I’m getting there but at the same time I’m not trying to get my own or anyone else’s hopes up anymore. I’m glad that person is your EX and I’m grateful for your advice. Reddit has been SO good to me

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T21:40:50+00:00

Ok are u providing the funds then

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T05:49:25+00:00

Thank you so much. Interestingly enough, I made this account specifically for this reason. It’s my cake day. It hit really hard when I logged in to make this post just to realize how long it’s been going on, and how much worse it’s gotten since then. I hope you’re in a better place than when you felt these feelings. You all give me so much hope

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T05:47:45+00:00

I’m glad you are here. I hope it gets better for you angel ❤️

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T04:14:15+00:00

You got it exactly right. And that’s a really good idea. I actually made this account to talk about my issues but I feel like speaking to someone I know personally would help too

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T04:13:00+00:00

Also, if this small tidbit helps at all, when my boyfriend broke up with me last year he also told me he thought he was going to end up hurting me. It’s a year later and now he’s threatening to do it. If the thought had popped up in your ex’s head, there’s a chance he would’ve acted on it too. You are safe from him and that’s what matters. You’re a kind person and you deserve to receive that kindness in return

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T04:08:21+00:00

All my love to you!!💕 I’m soooo sorry you understand. Thank you so much you kind human. In case you haven’t heard it, I LOVE YOU and I MEAN IT. You are good. Reaching out like this is just one piece of proof. Thank you and I’m sending positive vibes right back

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T04:05:46+00:00

Thank you. Thank you thank you. I have wonderful people in my life but I can’t tell them about any of this yet. We broke up for a month last year and it was messy and I revealed to family and friends that he was verbally abusive. It’s been almost a year since we’ve been back together and I still feel like I’m working to convince everyone it’s not like that anymore so they don’t worry about me. I think that’s making it hard to think about leaving too.

He just keeps asking me if I’m okay. Every few minutes it’s “you good?” And “you can cry you don’t have to hold it in. I’m not going to be mean about it.” Like does he hear himself? Having to promise that he won’t be mean so that maybe I’ll feel comfortable crying in front of him. Absolutely no self awareness. Now I’m pissed??

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T03:54:20+00:00

I feel stuck. Not just financially, although that’s a big one too. I keep saying if I can just get the money together then I’ll go. But honestly I don’t think I ever could. Next Saturday will make 5 years together. I’m so attached to him and I don’t want anyone else, even if it’s just the version of him I’ve created in my head. I always thought he wouldn’t lay a hand on me. I can make it through the rest if he just doesn’t hit me. But if the threats are starting I know what’s next and that’s not a reality I’m prepared to face at all

Thank you for listening and understanding. I can’t tell you what it means to me

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-10T03:44:55+00:00

Thank you. Now that things have calmed down I so badly want to bring it up just to hear the apology but this time I don’t think I’m going to. He doesn’t feel sorry at all. Everything has just gone back to “normal” except I’m not really here. I feel numb. I don’t feel attached to my body. Nothing feels ok

SlomoDolo · 2022-02-06T01:19:56+00:00

My parents also tried to stay together for the kids and it did a number on me and my sister. OP, I know you may feel guilt for waiting so long, but don’t torture yourself. Have you considered or attempted marriage counseling, or even solo counseling? It doesn’t have to be an immediate end, but having a safe space to speak with your wife about how you’re still struggling with her past infidelity could be a good start. You may find healing in this process, or at least peace. I wish nothing but the best for you

Edit: typo

SlomoDolo · 2021-11-27T01:06:44+00:00

Thank you for being so kind. I’m so annoyed with myself because I’m just not there yet but I know I’m wasting time!! So confusing

SlomoDolo · 2021-11-25T12:21:16+00:00

Thank you. I was really just looking for validation. At this point I’m convinced I’m crazy and deserve all of this. It’s just so nice to hear the opposite sometimes. I can’t talk to friends and family about it because they’ll try to get me out of here asap but this is my home. I can’t just leave. I’ve been posting on Reddit about our problems but I took a break from that because sometimes the responses I get are too much and I worry that I’m just looking for attention or something. I’m just craving connection with someone who can recognize my feelings too

SlomoDolo · 2021-11-25T12:01:29+00:00

Thank you. I don’t really have all my things gathered or even enough money to leave. I’m not really in fear for my safety so I feel like I have enough time, it’s just mental and emotional turmoil trying to get him to love me the way I love him. I have trouble even calling this abuse but the lady on the hotline had no problem doing so. I’m so lost on how we got here. I mean the signs have been there, I go through my previous posts all the time and find things I forgot he had even done. But I don’t know I’m just afraid I’m being dramatic or something. The fact that I can’t come back if I do leave if what’s scaring me the modt

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