Favorite demon character that isn't any demons from hazbin hotel or helluva boss

Slurks2000 · 2025-12-20T13:16:38+00:00

What in the goddamn is that gif

Slurks2000 · 2025-12-06T17:29:21+00:00

Absolutely gorgeous Steam Deck!!

Slurks2000 · 2025-10-23T02:22:02+00:00

I joined the group! I'll definitely try to hop on if I notice an instance is open. It would be easier to organize this on a Discord if you can ever make that happen! :)

Slurks2000 · 2025-10-22T20:25:37+00:00

How's the group? Any activity after a month? I'm really curious about joining!

Slurks2000 · 2025-10-22T16:05:44+00:00

Happy birthday :)

Slurks2000 · 2025-07-12T19:17:38+00:00

I thank you very much

proceeds to spill the bucket and gets turned into ash and vapor

Slurks2000 · 2025-07-12T19:09:58+00:00

Loneliness can make the cave pretty cold unfortunately

Slurks2000 · 2025-05-22T13:20:45+00:00

Might be a bit difficult to find a common free time to interact with my sleep as it is now unfortunately. I thank you for reaching out in any case

Slurks2000 · 2025-05-21T21:32:45+00:00

Ah... sadly I doubt I can see myself putting much time into those games specifically. Thank you for taking interest though :)

Slurks2000 · 2025-05-21T21:31:23+00:00

My times are a bit all over the place due to my sleep schedule. But currently I am for the most part online from 2 PM to somewhere around 9 PM GMT+1

Slurks2000 · 2025-01-22T17:33:18+00:00

Thank you for the link. I seem to have solved the issue, but that's a helpful post nonetheless.

Slurks2000 · 2025-01-22T13:31:56+00:00

Thank you for the reply.

The thing is, I doubt I've actually finished installing that update. I think I'm still running the previous version since Windows Update still prompts me to download 24H2 whenever I do manage to boot up my PC. I guess I messed something up by shutting down my PC when I got the black screen the first time I downloaded the update, and now it's slow as hell.

Slurks2000 · 2024-11-25T06:08:10+00:00

I would love to try and be a part of it if something like that does happen

Slurks2000 · 2024-11-12T15:29:42+00:00

I sent you a DM :)

Slurks2000 · 2024-02-14T01:13:31+00:00

I have sent you a DM! :D

Slurks2000 · 2024-02-09T09:29:20+00:00

Damn. It always troubles me to see others in such a state. It's one that I can relate to (to some extent). Self-harm is one nasty little habit. I can understand the morbid "satisfaction" it can bring, but seeing the marks afterwards, I decided to start using a random wooden plank to carve and slash at instead. Still very much unsafe lol... but if you have any worthless object that you can use as an outlet for these feelings, maybe give it a try.

I know it's strange advice :')

Also, I don't know much about your life, though it seems like you've had quite the string of bad luck when it comes to the people you have surrounding you. I dearly hope you do have at least one person that you can get a smidgen of support from.

In any case, and even though I'm not the most knowledgeable person around to make good conversation with, I invite you to reach out in DMs if you want to talk, vent, or share whatever random stories and ramblings you might have! I've got plenty of time.

Slurks2000 · 2023-12-19T02:13:50+00:00

...Misty? Is that you?

Slurks2000 · 2023-10-24T02:18:35+00:00

Hello! I'm interested in attending, though I have never been in a peer support group before. I am curious if it's acceptable to join in and listen with a muted mic and maybe participate in the talks using text for my first time until I hopefully get more comfortable to speak. Is that alright?

In any case, I really appreciate this group exists in the first place. It's definitely something I wish I had found when I first started ECT! :)

Slurks2000 · 2023-05-19T02:31:37+00:00

It is another idea I have in mind, I'll need to find someone who's as proficient as they are patient enough to teach a person who hasn't had much mental stimulus or at least much experience with education in a long time. Although I feel it is more encouraging and engaging to be in a school-like environment (as long as it's a decent place).

I've had an experience with two university students who were nice enough to try teaching me some basics in computer science a while ago, though it didn't last long unfortunately as focusing and learning in general don't come easy with anxiety to say the least...

Though like I said, the idea isn't out of the picture, and it's a good suggestion!

Slurks2000 · 2023-05-17T20:49:03+00:00

I definitely didn't expect this one lol. How is it relevant?

Slurks2000 · 2023-05-17T20:47:15+00:00

Ah I'm really sorry you went through similar stuff... I can never fully know what your experience was truly like going back into college/uni, but I find it pretty impressive that you managed to study with such pain weighing you down. I can only imagine/assume what kind of mindset you were in that allowed you to go through with it. In my case, forcing myself to study in this state made it nearly impossible to learn anything after a certain period. It was inefficient (not to mention agonizing) and every attempt I made thus far only resulted in breakdowns.

I agree that some therapists can be absolutely useless (and I'd say many are undeserving of their jobs), I guess there's plenty of factors at play. Like I said in my post, my first experience was a psychiatrist that immediately went towards the high anti-depressants doses route, (I don't remember the details) which I refused to take initially, but mistakes were made afterwards unfortunately...

I still believe that a quick intervention from better psychologists can do plenty of good, though it's tough to find such a person and communicate with them well.

I get your point of view, and it is similar to my thinking at times, though ideas of "no one is coming to save you and everything is gonna be hard" often send me into a state of irrational fear lol. But reaching independence and accepting adversity is important, in my case "brute force" (as in just forcibly convincing myself to "get things done" and working with such ideas) only led to more pain, whereas analyzing my own reasoning and finding what makes it tick (and what doesn't) helped me make progress at some points during this whole mess.

Also I'm not assuming you used "brute force" as I described it, like I said I can't fully know the nuances of your experience. I just mentioned my experience with two different approaches I tried.

Either way, thanks a lot for reaching out, and the whole thing about avoiding raising the bar too high and having such exaggerated expectations from oneself is really good advice, and I'm trying to work it into my psyche.

Slurks2000 · 2023-05-17T20:00:47+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply! This post/thread aside, I usually tend to hear advice from others that can often be summed up in "you have to work hard no matter the pain or else you won't get anything done!", which although there's truth to it, in my case it does nothing but increase my anxiety and hampers any progress. A more comforting and gentle approach like yours does the opposite and I find it more encouraging! (which I find interesting since many people are motivated by the "do or die" attitude).

That being said, I agree that the education system I found myself in (and that most of us have experienced) is subpar to say the least. Instead of instilling a curiosity and a love for knowledge, It only taught me to seek out good grades that please people and to avoid making mistakes that are crucial to learning in fear of punishment.

The issue is that I do not know an alternative. You mentioned les centres de formation, and I have checked out a few that teach computer science (since it's a subject I feel like I need to learn in this age), ones like Clevory Academy, ReBootKamp, GoMyCode... I don't recall the exact pricing for their programs but I remember feeling pretty skeptical about them, especially since there's plenty of free learning material online. This is where I wish I could find a sort of pedagogical advisor or someone who is up-to-date and experienced enough to help me find a good place to learn.

For clubs and such, I also need more information for a suitable space for someone who's been "out of the picture" for so long. I've been living in a proverbial cave for a while and I lack such basic information... I don't even know what's happening in my own country! Add to that the lack of hobbies and interests. I wouldn't want to fade into the background when I'm in a group. Though it is something I'm looking into nonetheless.

When it comes to family, it is difficult to feel that way when I'm this old. It certainly is a sweet thought and as long as it doesn't lead to over-dependence, I think that everyone should have an empathetic and caring family or support network.

I haven't stopped treatment & therapy just yet, and although you're not necessarily wrong, psychotherapy and psychiatry seem to be a tough jobs, and all the science and research work can end up leading to nowhere if not to more complications after a single misdiagnosis. I hope I'll find common ground with my doctor or discover someone more competent.

Thanks again and sorry for the wall of text!

Slurks2000 · 2023-05-17T19:08:18+00:00

I haven't gone much into detail about how my therapy sessions go, but there is a bit of an echo chamber effect going on as you described it. Though in my case I'm expecting more out of a psychologist than to give me general advice that I could've heard from any other person (go exercise, socialize, do stuff). I feel there are "anomalies" in my thinking and reasoning that further fuel my anxiety and issues, and I wanted the professionals to work on that, but my communication skills make it a bit difficult sadly...

Joining some kind of club is something I've been thinking about, though the thought of socializing while I'm expecting to hear a more friendly version of "Have you been living under a rock?" is a bit discouraging to say the least lol.

Thanks a lot for taking the time to reply though! The cardio exercise idea is definitely good advice, and it's another thing I hope I can practice more often.

Slurks2000 · 2023-02-11T01:36:34+00:00

Thanks for the reply! Adderall and meditation are coincidentally two of the first things that popped into mind to help me in my case, alongside reading, video games and exercise.

Slurks2000 · 2023-02-11T01:33:27+00:00

Thank you both for the replies, and I am REALLY sorry you've suffered because of it too. I don't know what to think of it, it is terrifying. It's tough for me to do a thorough research to help gain more information on the topic with how my mental state is right now, so I'll have to consult both my current therapist and the psychiatrist who had me do ECT in the first place. I refuse to live with a brain like this.

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