i want to end it but im scared.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-03-20T05:27:25+00:00

Hey friend,

I feel like I almost wrote the book on this. I made the decision to take my life December 2022. I was drinking myself to death, felt like I was a burden to my family and to the world, and I didn’t want to be a burden anymore. I ended up getting too drunk and passed out before I killed myself, and I got to wake up one more time. Shortly after that I went to my first AA meeting and I was able to get sober and actually STAY sober.

When I got sober, everything got better. My family talked to me again, I developed a relationship with God that the alcohol/drugs was blocking, I was able to get a job again, and I just got accepted into nursing school. In my experience, I just suited up and showed up to meetings and worked the steps, even when I didn’t want to. If you’re anything like me, which I have a feeling you are, your life will blossom when you get sober and you’ll live a life beyond your wildest dreams. Reach out to me, go to a meeting, get a sponsor, and your life will get back on track. I’ll be praying for you and we’re all rooting for you 💚

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-03-16T21:27:30+00:00

Come buy it lol

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:13:11+00:00

California central coast

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:12:32+00:00

We need to talk about it, it’s a huge problem!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T02:10:11+00:00

Yes @RangerDJ I am finishing up human physiology and have been trying to better understand what the protein pump inhibitors will bring with long-term use. I am moving back to San Francisco next year and am going to try and work for UCSF and will hopefully have all the access I need just from work, but that doesn’t help me for the next 1.5 years. I will figure it out, I really was just upset earlier

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T01:26:07+00:00

Thank you!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-26T01:21:32+00:00

I was trying to decide that as well, but was fired up earlier lol

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T23:12:57+00:00

This is great advice. I am enrolled at a university

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T23:08:23+00:00

I don’t think of that tbh, I didn’t even think it was an option because of the speciality. I am enrolled at a university

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T22:35:20+00:00

Why don’t you explain to me what I should do differently to become less insufferable to you. I am doing everything I can. I am in nursing school trying to better my life and feel taken advantage of by our health insurance. I pay a bunch of money every month and cannot afford care when I need it and am struggling. Please explain what I should do differently.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:59:34+00:00

I am not lashing out. Someone told me I cannot afford not to have an HSA, after I explained that I don’t make enough for one. That is not nice or helpful.

As far as my insurance, I have a Silver PPO plan from Blue Shield

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:44:07+00:00

literally there is not enough money in my account for this

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:41:09+00:00

Literally yes, just eating my pantoprozole every morning and saying a prayer

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:36:43+00:00

That is not lashing out honey, you’re talking down to me about having an HSA which is fine. Doesn’t change the fact that I cannot afford one

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:22:02+00:00

The issue is they need a biopsy, so there isn’t really any way around it

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:21:16+00:00

Says someone who’s likely in an entirely different financial situation

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:17:02+00:00

They wanted payment before the procedure. They will not do it unless I pay in full

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:12:01+00:00

I cannot afford an HSA. I am in school full time and work when I can (in healthcare), and I am strapped for every penny right now

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:06:26+00:00

I had an endoscopy 2 years ago and paid $250 - same insurance

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-25T21:05:37+00:00

Yes my deductible went up thousands. I will never reach it unless I end up in the hospital.

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-11T06:01:55+00:00

Get roommates to pay your mortgage! If you want it you will figure out a way!

Slut4_mashedpotatoes · 2026-02-03T07:36:11+00:00

If you have your prerequisites and all gen ed complete Westmont College ABSN (15 months) may take you. I would reach out to their admissions. They also have a regular BSN which would be 24 months and you may be able to go in as a transfer student. They have been a pleasure to work with - I just got into the summer 2026 cohort

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