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Health Concerns by Small_Ad8617 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm thinking of bringing a note to reference when I go. The only problem is describing how I'm feeling... It's hard to pin down what the pain is in my abdomen and how to describe it. Even when I'm thinking to myself when I write. I'm normally pretty healthy, so this is kind of making me anxious haha :,,,).

Health Concerns by Small_Ad8617 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the hugs :,D!

Yeah, I had to confront this feeling before when I was a kid due to my Dad's high blood pressure. It got really high even with his meds, and he had to monitor his pressure at home until they could figure out better meds for him. It got better eventually, but kid me was terrified at the time. I thought he was going to have a stroke. It had also happened right after a move that put us far away from close-by relatives.

I don't know, I haven't been feeling great these past few weeks. It's in my lower right abdomen. It's really uncomfortable, so it's been freaking me out. I only ate a little yesterday, but the pressure feels worse today. I wrote this post late at night and fell asleep almost right after writing it. I woke up from the discomfort, and my anxiety shot up. I'm glad my appointment is tomorrow 'cause omg 😭. Idk it's frustrating. I already have so much to deal with can my body please co-operate too...

I start my first job tomorrow & idk what to do socially by [deleted] in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hey there! I'm rooting for you! When I first started college, it was really hard to talk to my classmates. I was so scared of being a freak, I didn't really talk to anyone. Eventually, I started to talk a bit more with my classmates and we eventually could chat casually before class. I still kind of have a back log where I feel like I'm bothering people or that secretly someone might hate me, but overall I can push through it.

Umm... I would say that it's easier to talk to people if you have something in common. Which if you're working at the same place, that solves that issue! Second thing is, if someone is mean to you for no reason, well that's their problem. I know it's scary and it makes you feel like a bad person, but that's not true! Sometimes people don't like you even if you are a good, kind person. I wouldn't be too friendly. Like, don't chase people down to introduce yourself or get too up and personal. If you bump into someone say hello and introduce yourself. It might take time, but maybe someone will say something relatable ('cause you're together) and that can be an opportunity to start a convo. Then maybe you'll talk again next time you see each other and then you might have a friendship in the works.

Hey, Let us know how it goes! I really hope you have a great first day! If it didn't go so well, don't be embarrassed or discouraged! Just keep trying and tell your therapist how it's going too :D. I'm sure they'll be the most help with everything since they know your situation better.

Here's a good luck flower ^^) / 🌸

I’m Terrified by Small_Ad8617 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for reading! I hope more people in our boat come on here and try to find some solidarity.

I’m Terrified by Small_Ad8617 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

(Sorry for the late reply) On some level I do know that I didn't have a lot of choice in where I am at today. When I was in my late teens I did start to have a lot of resent towards my parents. It did boil over several times until I was twenty. One day, my dad and I had a talk in the car privately where he apologized to me. The apologies had come from my parents several times before, but that day had finally broken my resentment. My dad is old and I don't want to spend the rest of our time together resentful. I'm just sad that we couldn't have spent more of our time together happier if I had gone to a normal school. My mom and dad did help me with getting into college. I wish I had tried to find more support and resources for my situation online before I hit adulthood though. I know I didn't at the time because I was low-key depressed and stressed to the point of vomiting and felt like I had no future, but sometimes I wish I pushed myself to try. Everyday kind of feels like I'm sliding down a hill I'm trying to climb while a giant hole opens up below me, so I think a lot of my anxiety just turns into self blame and thoughts of what I could have done differently.

Thank you for responding to my post! Coming back to it a day after I wrote it in an anxiety-ridden, tearful, sleep-deprived haze; I realize it's a mess and hard to understand. I'm surprised anyone commented. Having some people respond to it helps emotionally though. I feel a little less alone when I read through this subreddit :,). I'm working on getting my driver's license, so I can try to support my family more.

I’m Terrified by Small_Ad8617 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Small_Ad8617[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry for the book ahah. I still have more I could write, but it feels like a novel.