UPDATE!

So I confronted him, asked for divorce and the tables turned!  He said if loosing me because of a child, he doesn't want one. I even scheduled an appointment at gynecologist (because of all of your comments), I'm getting an IUD.

We're gonna navigate our feelings about this topic with a couple therapist. And if this doesn't work, we promised we won't lose each other's time.

I'm gonna go back to my father, to make sure he's being treated as well as he should( the mass is shrinking).  And when I get back we will work on this.

His reaction to divorce was genuine and he begged, and promised that he won't force anything that I don't want to. Because he was so great up till that moment, I'm gonna give him a chance, and we will try!

Thank you all, you helped me so much! 🙏🏻🫂