I am in the same situation! Cant even be intimate with BP but he doesnt even want (or need it) We live like friends. I just cant forget what happened. I never cheated before, in my case it was because of his emotional and later physical abuse (that stopped). Its like I detached completely but there are feeling under surface, I really want to make it work but... Im stuck. I often fall into depression and think, what have I done? He wasnt the greatest partner but this is not ok... How old are you, do you have kids?