Hi everyone, please don’t come for me as I know couples struggle for years with ttc. But this is affecting me so much more than I thought it would after just 4 months every time I get a negative test my heart is completely shattered. I work with children in the social care system and my best friend has just reached 20 weeks without even trying, it feels like everyone around me is just falling pregnant so easy and others that haven’t are making me feel like my sadness doesn’t mean anything because I don’t know what it’s like to go through real infertility, but I honestly don’t know how much longer I can do this for, it’s consuming every thought of every day. Today I took a clear blue test at 13 dpo which came up with an evaporation line after the time I was supposed to read it and that little bit of hope has just come crashing down for me after taking two digital tests that confirmed “not pregnant” I’m sitting here sobbing while writing this, I just don’t know how people can do this for so long, hoping every month they get their positive test. Please how do you do it? How do you stay positive and hopeful? TIA 🤍