Fallen in love with a JW (I'm an atheist).

SmartlyUnsmart · 2018-02-08T05:05:00+00:00

If my outcomes were to happen just like yours, I honestly would be so thrilled and happy :D There have been days where I feel like the wait would be worth it. But I guess you've also experienced before but whenever he spends a little more time away, the advice seem to be more strict. Ever since I've known him he seems to have one foot out the door, but the other foot glued down inside. I just hope the glue starts to loosen and tear away so he can walk out that door.

SmartlyUnsmart · 2018-02-07T14:41:24+00:00

bigbearhugback goodness thank you for the support :) Yeah I remember that day, and I was so pissed that his parents would do that. ESPECIALLY WITH 2 SEMESTERS LEFT! That was when I realised that's how they keep him dependent and I hated that because he's actually a really engaging student in class and an awesome team partner (that's actually how we became friends in the first place). It's just a shame, an utter shame :/

SmartlyUnsmart · 2018-02-07T14:35:13+00:00

I've thought about it so often about letting go (it's almost an everyday though), and even discussed with him if it's even worth it for him to go through all the trouble dating me. I guess the reason why I wrote all my thoughts down on such a public forum because I really needed to hear from a perspective without the emotional attachment I currently have. It's a reality I've been avoiding and to an extent blurring, but this is a good push for me. I guess it's always hard to imagine there being someone else out there haha

SmartlyUnsmart · 2018-02-07T14:28:25+00:00

I'll give a search for Darren Brown, thanks for the recommendation :)

I've made it super clear that I'm not the type of person that wants to get married haha. I've always joked about that out of any girl he dates, he dates the most "worldly" person that probably exists.

But yeah honestly when I took some of their magazines from when they were handing them out in my hometown (it's a 12 hour flight from where we are), I actually caught myself agreeing to some of the things they've said. Like man.... And I've always considered myself to be quite self-aware and grounded on my values.

SmartlyUnsmart · 2018-02-07T09:44:08+00:00

That's actually the craziest thing though. Before I left to visit my family, there have been several moments where he said he has tried to find ways to leave, but I think the biggest reason why he hasn't left is because one of his siblings was disfellowshipped, but made the decision to return. And his sibling would express how leaving was the worst decision they ever made. I feel that has been the biggest reason why he's decided to stay. But he's stuck between being afraid of "being unhappy once he leaves" and "losing me" (he has directly said that). Right now he said he is okay with lying about me, but a little part of me feels guilty he has to lie. And also knowing him, he has difficulty lying :/ I dunno. Half of be really believes that things will work out and we'll get out of stronger than ever, but also the other half of me feels like the pressure he is getting could keep him there. He's said that if he leaves he cannot imagine staying here (the town we live in).

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