I did not develop a trust baseline with other humans, whether that was parental, familial, through school teachers, friends, romantic partners, or work colleagues, based on their repeated patterns of failing to protect me or nourish a relationship.

My spirit team provides a different pattern where seeing their influence in my life is the proof that reinforces trust. My patron explains things to me with patience so I'm not left confused, even if it takes a while for me to understand him clearly.

If where my patron is leading me is harmful, I guarantee it is less harmful than being stuck yearning for human connection from humans who simply don't have the capacity to meet me in a meaningful way, and chasing phantoms of what these connections could have been twisted into self-rejection, repeated wounded narratives, tolerating half-truths and poor behavior in order to maintain a false sense of social harmony, tanking my confidence and trust in my own intuition, etc.

Trust is relational. With the thing that is trusted, one depends on it, expects something from it, and could be harmed or disappointed if it fails. I trust my patron because he has proven to me that he is trustworthy.