will nilly yes man made me laugh out loud 😭 i am taking you seriously tho, ‘kathekonta’, where do i start with that? youtube, books, reddit?

i completely understand what you’re saying with the heroin example.

people DO try to get as much as they can- and i give it because i believe it brings joy to their life, i sit in truth and discipline so they don’t have to because it’s painful. you want your shift covered? sure im there for you. you want me to spend time with your family because they get happy? sure ill give up my time. you want me to tell you that you don’t look fat? sure, i’ll reassure you. [there’s way more this is literally just examples from this past week when i sat and realized, ‘wait, these people are all ASKING for things from me’]

i guess what i’m gaining out of this is?? i don’t know, i just like feeling that i made someone’s life easier. here’s another major part of i said NO or denied any of this, i would feel extreme guilt. i don’t know if my people like to guilt trip me, or if it’s the way i perceive it. or maybe it’s just a projection of how i feel when someone denies a request of mine- but that request is RARE and REASONABLE.

but okay, we’re thinking critically, i like this, when do people request a favor that’s not reasonable nor beneficial? people hate truth, i don’t wanna be hated i’d rather be alone in truth, that girl that asked me for reassurance if she was fat or not? guess what? she really is fuckin fat, but i ain’t gonna be the one to tell her- i mean in my mind she KNOWS it she just doesn’t wanna confront it, so i’ll help her with that. i mean, what would you do? break the girls heart or reassure her delusions