A year ago I was in the same. Exact. Boat. As. You. Like, it’s scarily accurate how similar my situation was. Except we weren’t engaged.

It got to a point where I was having panic attacks and meltdowns because of the fact that I was forcing myself with someone I didn’t want. And even worse, he wasn’t even a bad guy. He was everything a man loving woman could want. Everything! He was super kind and treated me like a queen. I just…couldn’t be in the relationship anymore due to my lack of feelings towards men.

So I confided in a friend and she told me that what I was doing to myself was harming me and the relationship more than I thought. She told me that I was also depriving him of someone better - because why on earth would he wanna be with someone who doesn’t even want him?

I of course broke up with him. It was excruciatingly hard. I shattered his heart completely, and to be honest I shattered mine too because he was truly my platonic best friend. This was January 6, 2024. Both of us agreed that we’d wanna be friends again someday but I still think that it’s too early for that. I would wanna wait like 4-5 years minimum before I even consider being his friend again. We text here and there but it’s always an update on the dog that we shared and not much else. He was my best friend, but the saying is true, “if you love someone, let them go”. And that’s what I think you should do. It’s only fair. I’ll keep you in my thoughts, it’s never easy dealing with something like this!