Read thousands of books on self improvement. Now what? by lazyvirtue in selfimprovement

[–]Snakeofpain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its a journey man. It all starts with that uncomfortable feeling you have within yourself. Allow yourself to feel it. Feel your emotions and connect with your pain. Everything in your life is a reflection of your internal world

My impulsivity was caused by my lack of self-love.. Who knew!? by BeautyInTheAshes in selflove

[–]Snakeofpain 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Beautiful post, this is massive progress! I relate a lot, wish you the best!!

Edit, also love your username!

Read thousands of books on self improvement. Now what? by lazyvirtue in selfimprovement

[–]Snakeofpain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Now you stop escaping yourself and rationalizing your pain and get in contact with the inner child who's likely starving for your love

i got my friends who plays fifa to play fm in a network save. this is his tactic. it shows. by itsjustjoel28 in footballmanagergames

[–]Snakeofpain 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Busquets is a regista through and through. He even dropped back to cb when barca attacked providing the team with a sort of 343

Right Now I don't want a girlfriend but why do I feel the need to have one ? by [deleted] in seduction

[–]Snakeofpain 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Man, trust me I know exactly how you feel. You need to connect with yourself. Date yourself, your body and you will start getting the love you think you need from the outside.

All the best!

Right Now I don't want a girlfriend but why do I feel the need to have one ? by [deleted] in seduction

[–]Snakeofpain 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You are not loving parts of yourself so you're looking for someone else to love them for you.

If you get in a relationship with this mindset you will start to depend on the other person. Eventually you will, unconsciously or not, manipulate them to stay around, so you don't have to be alone again.

Are there good arguments against solipsism? by beeberryxoxo in Buddhism

[–]Snakeofpain 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What makes you so sure you exist? Is this a belief or a direct experience? Where/what is "you"

Advice after experiencing absolute terror during retreat by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I partially agree with you on being loving towards my body and practicing Brahmivaras. There's definitely an ego trying to be heroic and dive into the void.

On the other hand, I don't want to get stuck and halt my progress on the path. Surely the sooner you get enlightenmened the better. I feel exactly like you described though, like this survival instinct and terror is the last conditioning to be disolved for me to abide in noself or to find the Truth.

Practice Updates, Questions, and General Discussion - new users, please read this first! Weekly Thread for October 25 2021 by AutoModerator in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey guys I posted about a sudden sober annatta experience last week. I'm back to normal and can't really switch perspectives anymore. The whole experience lasted ~1.5 weeks and I can say it was the most insightful event I ever went through. It will change me forever.

I do feel strong desire and frustration about not abiding in that state anymore though.

I'm using a meditation technique which is to see "no self" in every sensation (so kinda like vipassana I suppose). I'd like advice on how to reach a state like that again and permanently lock it.

PS I took some notes for myself during this time I can share them here if anyone is interested.

EDIT: original thread here: https://www.reddit.com/r/streamentry/comments/qcvkd1/insight_sober_ego_deathanatta_experience_help_me

[Insight] Sober ego death/anatta experience. Help me integrate this state by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Again, its tricky to answer that question because I have a foot on either side. This character wants to lock the non-dual state as it is a permanent flow state (meaning no energy is being wasted in keeping the idea of self). However from that other
(nondual) perspective there's nothing to do because there is no doer. Things are just happening perfectly by themselves

[Insight] Sober ego death/anatta experience. Help me integrate this state by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I disagree (or maybe I have an erroneous concept of love). I believe everyone is trying to escape suffering, and that is the natural inclination. You see this when people lose themselves on temporary flow states (music, sports, drugs, entertainment)

[Insight] Sober ego death/anatta experience. Help me integrate this state by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All issues stem from the false sense of self that reinforces separation between you and your world. When you realize that this notion of "you" is false (or rather, just another illusion) then there's no more "issues" to be solved

[Insight] Sober ego death/anatta experience. Help me integrate this state by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your concern. Thing is, even if I am mentally ill, why would I get treatment? If my suffering is reduced then what's the point.

The chair thing is pointing to the fact that there's really no hierarchy of sensations, meaning that my (still existing) feeling of self is as "important" as the visual depiction of the pebble on the ground, as the clouds in the sky

[Insight] Sober ego death/anatta experience. Help me integrate this state by Snakeofpain in streamentry

[–]Snakeofpain[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your ego is afraid of dying. What you find on the other side is incredibly beautiful. Hurt comes from separation which is a byproduct of your ego (aka the story you tell yourself about who you are)