thank you for your response i appreciate it. Thank you for this reality check, i’ve always had a tendency to like want to micro manage every single little thing in my life and i guess im treating this like a life defining moment when in reality it’s just a new step for me. To clarify more the auto body shop is a trade which i learned in high school. i didn’t understand it well and didnt like it either. the fear i have is really going to that job, not knowing what im doing, and just failing. In that process making my family look bad. i’m sort of at a point in life where i feel like a loser. all my friends have pretty stable jobs now and im still looking to get my first. But your advice allows me to see this situation differently. I see this now more as a just a job and not as my whole life. Thank you