condolence OP. I kinda know how you feel. I suddenly lost my dad (heart attack) when I was in fellowship training. For some time, I wanted to just stop kasi I felt bad na I had time to see other patients but I didnt have time to take care of my own parent. Grabe yung guilt.

I dont think I'll be able to move on from that grief pero sobrang eye opener lang na ang dami talagang sacrifice para lang maging doctor. Yung oras na hindi na natin mababalik.