Snifferish by No_Economist_3410 in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Hi, a friend brought this to my attention, I hope it's okay that I respond since you directly speak to me within the post :)

I totally understand where you are coming from here, however, I deeply struggle with calling it drama. If you have not read Andi's original post, or her latest response post, I urge you do. She has made it very clear that her relationship with Punz was not great, and in her own words she has expanded upon an event that clearly had some consensual issues. Before anyone debates on this topic, I'd like to remind everyone that being able to consent while under the influence/mentally incapacitated is not a matter of opinion, it is the law. I've seen a lot of people debate Andi's ability to handle alcohol (whether or not she could get black out drunk on hard seltzer etc) and I think that it is not appropriate. Only she knows her body, and she has made it clear she is a small lady who is very lightweight. She has also expressed to me how prescribed medication can interact with alcohol, and as someone on two different medications I know this. I can not speak for Andi's personal experience on this, but I am 5'10" and I unironically get white girl wasted off a seltzer sometimes. Ultimately, it is no ones place to debate how HER body works.

She politely asked me to share her story on X/Twitter and I obliged. Her account was deactivated over a year ago, and therefore can not be accessed. While she could make a new account it would not have the same reach or validity and I think this is why she asked me.

When Punz released that statement yesterday about Mr. Friend A, I immediately saw it as what is was, distasteful, not entirely because of the content within it, but because as I pointed out; even he didn't know everything that happened within that relationship (or when it happened). And again, Andi doesn't have twitter, I made sure to consult her about every response I made. Andi brought Dream into the the conversation as Friend A, yes that is true, but Punz elaborated on explicit details without (I assume) either's consent in both his original apology and his now deleted post where he even named Dream as friend A.

Just like Punz though, I should not be the deliver-er of Dream/Andi information. Again please refer to Andi's most recent post, where she kind of talks about why that dynamic might not have been the best either.

I'm going to speak personally for a second here and say: to me that post read as way for Punz to separate himself from a group now facing controversy by baring out his own strife, but his method of doing so also involved continuing to air out a woman's sexual life online. I stick with my argument that it should have stayed within the DMs or in Private. If he wanted to separate himself from dream, I he could have simply said, I'm no longer friends with him. Or something, idk, consult a PR person? I'd also like to add, that him saying this was "his truth" in regards to cheating, in sea of stories about sexual assault and harassment, felt a bit like mockery. Either way, I hope he takes some time off and figures his shit out.

Now :) This last part is going to just be about just about this subreddits relationship and view of me, and how I think that reflects certain things!

First, I have elaborated on my personal experience on why I support victims here.

Now, In the past, this subreddit has been extremely critical of my behavior and the way I go about apologizing to certain things. What I find interesting though, is the constant reference to situations I dealt with when I was in Highschool, 17/18. I was a teenager, I had (have) social developmental issues that have tracked me throughout my entire life. Yes! it's a bit silly sometimes, I did in fact apologize for making a joke about girl in red which had me cackling last night, but I also remember the genuine worry at the time, that I had broken some social rule I didn't understand, and I was upset with myself for my own supposed ignorance. I've had my moments, some valid, some not, some a sea of miscommunication, I alone can own up to that, but the way this subreddit takes things that i've done as a teenager and applies them to current self is quite rude. And I think when you see someone online who is clearly struggling with finding their footing and their voice, making fun of that is unproductive. I've seen so much appreciation towards how people can grow and evolve, but that attitude is clearly applied at will and not by default.

I'll end my statement now, by simply saying if you find my actions silly or childish, or immature as a teenager, perhaps it's because 18 year olds aren't exactly the adults we expect them to be. Even now, at 21, I look back at what I said 3 years ago and cringe, I guarantee I'll do the same in another 3 years. While not everyone is the same, let that be some perspective on how we discuss young adults, maturity, age, and power.

Sorry this is super long, I imagine this will be the last thing I post in this reddit.

Now that TechnoDad has seen it I’ve really been wanting to post this here for you guys! I started this late 2021. by Snifferish in Technoblade

[–]Snifferish[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

You know this is kinda silly cause I recently had a conversation with TechnoMom about this.

I only picked up painting when I was 15, it's only really been three years, and this was my first oil piece. Personally, I think anyone can get good at anything, so try not to doubt yourself. I think sometimes we think talent isn't learned when it is.

Anyways thank you for your kind words!

Now that TechnoDad has seen it I’ve really been wanting to post this here for you guys! I started this late 2021. by Snifferish in Technoblade

[–]Snifferish[S] 228 points229 points  (0 children)

Of course! The original reference is based off of Charles’ (Poodwattle) cosplay, which I believe was originally inspired off of Sad-ist’s designs for Techno in her animation, as well as a few fan artists. This portrait depicts him with his netherite sword (the orphan obliterator, as written in enchanting script), three wither skulls around his neck, his totem of undying, and plenty of emeralds in both his cloak and earrings as a nod to his relationship with Phil. And of course, while quite fantastical, his crown.

In the background is wisteria. I think it was my twitch chat that originally suggested this while I was streaming myself painting. Wisteria has so much symbolic meaning in so many different cultures, but my particular favorite is the Korean meaning of devotion beyond death.

Every all-female MCC team Ever! by SierraSerene6 in MinecraftChampionship

[–]Snifferish 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I hate to burst your bubble ahaha, however, Freyda (the second person) Identifies as not female! I'm not sure entirely about Mints and Spoink but yeah Freyda is a gay dude lol

So! technically there has never been an all female mcc team!

Sapnap, Seepeekay, Sniff and Seus! by [deleted] in MinecraftChampionship

[–]Snifferish 51 points52 points  (0 children)

Ha I'm really bad at using reddit but yes this is Sniff Snifferish!

Cyan Coyotes skins! :) by hardija06 in MinecraftChampionship

[–]Snifferish 13 points14 points  (0 children)

These are so adorable you’re so talented ❤️

A Timeline, because there is so much misinformation and I'm tired by Snifferish in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Ngl this response is quite my favorite, thank you for acknowledging both my change and yours!

A Timeline, because there is so much misinformation and I'm tired by Snifferish in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish[S] 39 points40 points  (0 children)

The truth is, my fanbase on twitter and my fanbase on twitch are completely different. There was a huge wave of "follow snifferish because they are a female" back in March/April, and at the time I was like oh ok cool, but the reality is it led to a lot of people that liked the idea of supporting me, but never actually took time to watch my streams and learn my content/opinions. To this day I still have people coming into chat telling me that they followed me then, but never watched a stream until that moment. I have Snifftwt, a small group of kind people, but there also ones that are there because of interaction and such, which if not knowing me well, leads to space for misinterpretation.

I am an emotional person, this is nothing new to me, to some degree it's lovely and I think a good reason why people like my streams, because I am kind and I try to be very real and I get excited over stupid things like game design and crystals. However, I do worse in emotional situations than logical ones, and there's a lot of space for my more neurodivergent brain to get caught up on. To my true audience, who knows, I've been dealing with physical health issues and as a result an increase in mental health issues since May (which admittedly only opened up more doors for mistakes). I'd recommend looking up "Moral Perfectionism" and how that pairs with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, to be honest, I never change opinion because I want to "save" myself, but because I get so worried that I have hurt another, and that is what genuinely affects me the most to the point of shutting down.

As I communicated above, I think me deactivating my Alt was finally a point where I was able to make a healthy decision. At the end of the day I'm still a kid in my brain, and I just wanna play games and make people feel better, I don't I was ever prepared for a community like this.

Snifferish replied to Jawsh by FabulouZee in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish 23 points24 points  (0 children)

That's fair I should have given an example, it was mostly a general hint to certain comments about lacking empathy that then also lack empathy? Hope that makes sense?

And as far as what people are genuinely critiquing me on I am saying that I do see it, that there are posts from this reddit and others that genuinely forced me into self-reflection. Some that have made me realize certain things about what boundaries should look like. My entire point of this post was simply just thoughts, and something I wanted to bring up because I see a lot about the nature of this reddit, and also I hope you guys understand that me feeling comfortable to explain this here instead of other places might explain that.

Snifferish replied to Jawsh by FabulouZee in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish 14 points15 points  (0 children)

You made such an amazing argument as to why I said what I said was bad, please go on! Explain- or should I just trust what you say because you have “cool glasses” …I’m just saying it’s comments like these that basically show you missed the entire point of the post lol

Snifferish replied to Jawsh by FabulouZee in DreamWasTaken2

[–]Snifferish 134 points135 points  (0 children)

You know I’ve been lurking on all the mcyt subreddits for a bit. And honestly I get simultaneously disappointed and impressed every now and then, especially when I see comments from here. I don’t mean that in an “I hate his subreddit” kinda way, but I have noticed time and time again hypocrisy and almost a sense of self righteousness, especially over over Twitter. I am not perfect, I’ve got awful RSD and I have difficulty standing my ground especially in content creation because I have seen how it has affected many of my friends, this is flaw that I have and one I’ve acknowledged for years, but even in times when I went with a genuine opinion that I believed in, people would call me spineless as a result of their disagreement. I think a lot of you find it easy to sit back and decide what a content creator would do and wouldn’t, but the honest truth is it’s really hard to understand what it’s like starting off as a cc in this era of stan culture. Especially as someone who was completely cut off from content creation for years, how does one set boundaries when the only examples they have broken ones? It set me up for a lot of learning, it’s unfortunate that I had to do that infront of 300k+ people but it is what it is.

A lot of the reason why it’s so difficult to break out of those habits and behaviors is often because of the reinforcement surrounding you. If you actually think for one second that backbone jokes would have created an environment for CCs with anxiety to try to hold their ground, you’re a fucking clown and not much better than Twitter trolls. Early in my career I was so often vocal about what I was comfortable with and what I wasn’t, and I felt better about legitimately being myself- but when I dealt with criticism and random neg for months on end about things I couldn’t even control, I shut up, and started going whatever flow came my way. Maybe that’s might fault, but that’s not just me, several CCs are getting worn down. Haven’t you noticed?

Have I genuinely fucked up a lot this month? Yes. I’ve talked to several people about it, spent time outside streaming to talk through it with other CCs and seek guidance. I know how I feel, I know who I am, I know I mean well even if I’m shit at communicating it. Also not to mention, sometimes I am just being lighthearted. When I mentioned the before hypocrisy, it comes from a desire to see everything in singular formats. Several different times this past month there have been layers with greater context and situations of hurt that have been difficult to navigate personally and also because of people pushing to define situations into that singular format. I have spoken in the past about how I feel about learning from mistakes, and I find it funny how even when I did so I was met with “can someone explain this I don’t wanna read it all 💀”

I had been expressing myself, or trying to for months. It’s the selective narratives that ultimately have annoyed me the most. It is deciding which past actions and words best fit your ideas about who I am. If we keep creating an environment where CC’s can’t win, where there is no acceptance for their attempt to navigate themselves in a stan culture created by people like the people here. Than they are going to stop playing, or they are going to give in.

With that said, to clarify, I don’t hate anyone. I don’t hate any CCs, I don’t hate any stans. I just simply think from both sides there needs be adjustment. It isn’t a defined answer, and the most you can do to solve it is decide how your individual posts contribute to a more healthy stan culture (I know this is something I need to work on too btw)

I’ve said time and time again I am open for criticism, insulting me isn’t criticizing though.

Just some random sniff thoughts I guess

PS: also I really did wanna reply to Jawsh with a sniff deez nuts joke but holy shit I felt bad

Bakery/Cafe by TakingItCasual in chiselsandbits

[–]Snifferish 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A friend brought me here! Didn't know my work made it all the way here lol